It’s so hard. He’s loving, he’s sweet, he tells me I’m incredible.

I want to believe. I want to believe that this considerate person is who he is. I want to forget all the pain and hurtful words.

And then, out of the blue, I’m reminded. It’s like ripping the wound open anew each and every time. He’ll say something and I’m thrown back to ‘then’. ( Read more... )

I am amused at how people will attempt to look good and thoughtful by offering up a sacrifice at the last minute when they agreed to it over a month and a half ago ( Read more... )

One of the things I'm trying to set aside more time for is learning tarot. To that end I'm going to pull one card a day, write the meaning of it in a notebook we got for that purpose, and share it here. I'm hoping that making it a daily post will assist in making sure that I keep it up. I happily welcome those with more experience to share their ( Read more... )

Happiest of days to fireflylive! I hope today to amazing for you and the coming year is overflowing with awesomeness for you!

Welcome to hug_machine! No secrets around here so feel free to jump in a comment where you like ( Read more... )

You'd think that with all the nasty emails I get I'd finally decide to lock down my journal so that nobody could read it unless I authorized them to. You'd think that eventually I'd get tired of seeing them pop into my mail with their accusations. Honestly I do. But locking down my journal isn't me. The person who's ultimately responsible for all ( Read more... )

I know a woman. She tells a different story to everybody she meets. She has told many that she had to leave her ex husband because he was abusive and cruel to her, that he threatened to hurt her and their daughter. They believe her and support her and never ask for his side of things. Her daughter knows her father has never raised a hand to her or ( Read more... )

You know ... when you spend two years sticking up for somebody and swearing that they have only the best of intentions it's a real fucking blow to find out that it was pretty much a lie ( Read more... )

Except ... I'm not.

The funny thing is that I'm not as stupid as people would assume me to be. The insanely hilarious thing is that the person most often assuming that I'm lacking in metal capability would be the person who lived with me for the past 6 years and claimed to love me in part because of my intelligence.

Was talking to L, lackland's "friend" ( Read more... )

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I don't like being lied to.

Worse, when I already suspect you and can easily catch you?

Don't fucking lie to me.

I'm going to go hit something, possibly a couple of someones until this passes.