torn, ripped, and incomplete
since new years the days have been passing by with a incline in the degree of satisfication. since ive been seeing someone in place of bibi ive been able to sleep at night without that feel of agonizing discomfort. jose "no se" seems to like me although im unsure why or what his motives are, why that should matter kills it but im overanalytical and am in search for everyones hidden agendas. however jose shows infactuation with my pregnancy, catching me completely offguard as something could be so unordinary so enjoy it while it lasts...im not oblivious and soon i'll be a liability for everyone around me, and i only expect myself to be there as usual. but they may not be so, since the news that the baby is a boy bibi has found sudden acception towards me. yea. little too late. still who else do i have to be this childs father? oh thats right there's um nobody but the coward that is his father. im trying to stay positive though remain reasonable: he's denied me and i no longer trust him in hopes that im getting a ring or even an apartment together. as of now he's trying to make a comeback in my world and what does it mean, im still unsure. i wont be giving up who is really keeping me happy right now which is jose despite the disapproval of our courtship by those who associated to him. so im winning, on top as usual. im not sure how to sum it all positively since its all the same in the end there will only be me....oh yeah and my son. now thats as stable as instability gets.