somewhere over the rainbow
...is where i am not
ive my decision and im sticking with it even though everyway i turn im discouraged and disappointed. Even if i wanted to i cant get rid of it so little miss strange is going to be a mommy, im so vaguely excited. its there but lack of validation. couldnt i be good enough for some happy version of my story? seems like i got hit in the head by a flying window and all of this isnt real. the denial from reality is my only source now, an illusion that im going to make it to the other side
...is where i want
over where id be experiencing success and satisfaction. i made a plan for myself and lost my way but now there is reason to follow that beam of reality back to where im supposed to go. the goal is to make it to the finish line and find my place over the rainbow. why oh why cant I? oh yeah cuz im unconscience. time to wake up,
ive my decision and im sticking with it even though everyway i turn im discouraged and disappointed. Even if i wanted to i cant get rid of it so little miss strange is going to be a mommy, im so vaguely excited. its there but lack of validation. couldnt i be good enough for some happy version of my story? seems like i got hit in the head by a flying window and all of this isnt real. the denial from reality is my only source now, an illusion that im going to make it to the other side
...is where i want
over where id be experiencing success and satisfaction. i made a plan for myself and lost my way but now there is reason to follow that beam of reality back to where im supposed to go. the goal is to make it to the finish line and find my place over the rainbow. why oh why cant I? oh yeah cuz im unconscience. time to wake up,