so, an earlier post than i expected to write, but there is a family crisis going on right now... my cousin phil killed himself. they found him yesterday morning, he hung himself in his closet. it sucks, coz i was already worried about my grandma, grandpa, and aunt... this was such a surprise. i thought i would write more about it, but i don't ( Read more... )

It's awesome, because I haven't been this happy in a real long time... not since PJ. Things just are changing so much, some good, some bad, but the good is definitely finally outweighing the bad ( Read more... )

I was kicked out because I was sick of the bullshit my mom was trying to pull, but it worked out because I had already been planning on moving in with Helen. I'm happy here, I feel at home. I don't even talk to my mom anymore... I mean, I don't know. I saw her on mother's day for like a minute, but that was it. According to what some people are ( Read more... )

I just read the entry before my last and remembered that there was stuff that I forgot to include about my mother. She was the one telling the doctors and my family and shit that I was on drugs and, while I was laid up at her house and couldn't really do anything for myself, rather than giving me my pain meds, she was taking them. there's tons of ( Read more... )

It's scary how you can do this to me. It's been so long, but every time I hear from you, I feel like I'm going to cry. Heh, sometimes I do. I know that what we had is gone, which is one of the reasons you don't know how I feel about you... I would rather have you in my life as a friend than not at all... I don't want to scare you away. I'll ( Read more... )

Ok, things are just getting more and more fun to try to figure out. I don't know anything that happened after my accident... there is more than a month of my life that just kind of isn't there in my head. My mom keeps telling me different stories, and I am finally being able to put the pieces of the puzzle kind of together... but now I go and ( Read more... )

So Tom and I are back together. Yay. That's great, but the main thing that I'm focused on is the fact that I'm scared that now yet another member of my family might have cancer, my aunt Maria. It figures that it's the people that I've been closest to that are the ones I have to worry about. Aunt Maria practically raised me, I had my own room, ( Read more... )

Things have been pretty interesting lately, I suppose. Haha, the whole relationship deal is still pretty retarded... I realized that I fell for Tom a bit and told him, and I'm now waiting for him to give me a response as to whether or not he wants to be with me. I've been asked out by a few people, but I really don't want to start anything new. ( Read more... )

Well, I can proudly say that I've survived my first REAL drill. This was the first time when I wasn't on profile, which is where you can't do anything physical, and I was scared. Push-ups, sit-ups, running, flutter kicks, all that fun stuff. I got smoked for the first time, haha, we were sitting talking about nothing really, waiting for shit to ( Read more... )

Things have been interesting, that's for sure. Not too much has been extremely new, but there have been a couple of major things going on. I don't know if I wrote this in previous entries, but I don't have to go the counselor anymore that the courts tried to tell me I'd have to go to for 4-5 months for some stupid driver's safety drug abstinence ( Read more... )