I'm tired, my nerves on the edge. Silvio doesn't feel much better. His week was nearly as hard as mine. So we hang around, cuddling and hugging each other, to give comfort and try to hide that we feel so weak inside ( Read more... )

No 2km, yesterday. I couldn't keep the 35s/100m speed up for more than 400m. So -> only 1800m. disappointed & sad ( Read more... )

I'll have a competition in the evening and I feel dead ( Read more... )

So.
Jetzt hab ich alle meine Proben runtergeschmissen.
Sie schauen alle gleich aus.
Und ich hab keine Ahnung mehr, welche welche ist.
Ich setz mich in ein Eck und heul.

work is stress.
there are a thousand things to do, to finish before my holidays next week.
I have no time. I come home late. I couldn't do any training, yesterday.

Silvio has a bad cold with fever.
and my ears hurt. again.

:-(

My weekend wasn't so happy ( Read more... )

Ich will nicht arbeiten.
Arbeiten ist scheiße.
Arbeiten ist fad.
Arbeiten ist um 6 aufstehen, um dann von halb 8 bis 4 oder 5 dumm herumzusitzen, die Zeit totzuschlagen, um 6 wieder heimzukommen.
Danach Essen. Schlafen. Fertig.
Ich will mehr Zeit.
Ich will mehr Leben.

:-(

Hm ( Read more... )

I should write something?
I'm tired. I have a pimple next to my nose.
I don't want to spread my unhappy thoughts.
Yesterday Silvio's brother came for a visit. To celebrate his birthday.
I had made a cake and Silvio had finished it.
pictures will come.

don't want to work.
just want to sleep.

(and now... some more push-ups)

This is the end of a long-time friendship ( Read more... )