On the Moon
Prom tomorrow night, well...I guess..."tonight" seeing as it's 2AM. I don't know how this is going to go, but it better be fun.
I'm feeling better.
A lot of the usual scary thoughts I have in my head that are generally full of doubt or wild, raging questions have sort of quieted. Not that they're gone, but definitely a lot less frequent. I definitely feel a lot more at peace about things. Something about today just makes me feel like all the insecurities, all the superficial stuff that I feel the need to offend or defend, all of the bullshit is just nothing. It's not a big deal, just let it go. It's not even that I'm going to plan to do that for everything...It's just that right now, I'm fine. ^_^
A response to Kathy's post:
I got into a really big fight with my sister once and took a bunch of clothes and spent the night at a friend's place and I planned on staying there for as long as I needed to. I stopped home to pick up a few things the following day and found a large piece of paper left on my laptop. My mother had printed out the quote, "Friends are God's way of apologizing for the family you were born to." and we had a long talk and all that stuff. But that quote really stuck with me. Not that I need an apology for my family, persay. More that there will always be the blood family you have, but there are some important friends you make out there that are really the family you find. So there family you're stuck with can suck, but the family you choose will never fail you.
I personally don't know my extended family all that well. I only have my mom and my sisters. Beyond that, it's always been about community finding/building. Frankly I don't think there's a difference between finding or building. Or if there is, I have no idea what it is.
I love seeing people find their family and see it for what it is.
Good night, all.
-Maggie.
I'm feeling better.
A lot of the usual scary thoughts I have in my head that are generally full of doubt or wild, raging questions have sort of quieted. Not that they're gone, but definitely a lot less frequent. I definitely feel a lot more at peace about things. Something about today just makes me feel like all the insecurities, all the superficial stuff that I feel the need to offend or defend, all of the bullshit is just nothing. It's not a big deal, just let it go. It's not even that I'm going to plan to do that for everything...It's just that right now, I'm fine. ^_^
A response to Kathy's post:
I got into a really big fight with my sister once and took a bunch of clothes and spent the night at a friend's place and I planned on staying there for as long as I needed to. I stopped home to pick up a few things the following day and found a large piece of paper left on my laptop. My mother had printed out the quote, "Friends are God's way of apologizing for the family you were born to." and we had a long talk and all that stuff. But that quote really stuck with me. Not that I need an apology for my family, persay. More that there will always be the blood family you have, but there are some important friends you make out there that are really the family you find. So there family you're stuck with can suck, but the family you choose will never fail you.
I personally don't know my extended family all that well. I only have my mom and my sisters. Beyond that, it's always been about community finding/building. Frankly I don't think there's a difference between finding or building. Or if there is, I have no idea what it is.
I love seeing people find their family and see it for what it is.
Good night, all.
-Maggie.