It's kind of amazing how irrational fear can make you. I just read my last entries and was like "whoa, dude!" Rational perception is almost completely lost when you feel absolutely cornered and alone.

( more scratching from the broken record... )

...or it will be more terrible then I can ever imagine.

Either or - right now I don't care. I have calmed down a great deal. I even talked to my mom on the phone and told her that I was [enter much repeated sob story here] but I did not say by whom. I told her that she would find out soon.

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I do not know exactly what it is but my anxiety is really severe ( Read more... )