reasons things totally fucking blow ( Read more... )

this loneliness is getting old.
and so am i.

there's gotta be more to this
joke of a life.

funny how everyone has the same
bit of advice.

this involuntary solitary sentence
has a price.

i'm moving into my grandma's house with katie and bird. my grandma has alzheimer's and she stays with caretakers now. so the house is empty ( Read more... )

oh you,
when will you get away from the walls,
get your nose out of anything with pages
and make some contact with that world spinning out there?
when will you
stop rationalizing your unhappiness
you lousy photographer
and a super self sabotager.
when will you
be satisfied with how it is
and not how it could be?

someone at our rv park was found dead last night.
ross found a dead dog.
my computer is dead (for the time being)
robert goulet is dead.
the grateful dead.
-de(a)dicated to carl who i barely remember as the old guy that paid his rent once.

it seems everyone is engaged. jen and sean. jenna and blake. holy cow. are we that old already ( Read more... )

here at the end of yet another 365 day cycle is me on a couch, flaked on with no where to go. this year is one i really was looking forward to sending off ( Read more... )

god, today:

let justice be served
show your mercy
keep my angry words behind my teeth
keep our fear down in our toes
show love.

sorry, hooked on Diane Wakoski. this one is shorter though. as i am discontent and have nothing worthwhile to say this tuesday morning, maybe this'll do:

"Reaching out with the hands of the sun

And thereupon ( Read more... )

i read this poem today out of one of my dad's books from the 70's. it struck just the right chord. its long, but worth it ( Read more... )