I feel a little bit lost and don't know what to grab on to. I don't even know how to start grabbing. I don't have the time to sit down and find all I need inside myself. Time, not as in minutes and hours, but time as in the place the situation. Nothing is steady. I'm still there where I know nothing will move if I quit trying to move forward. So I ( Read more... )

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edit: screw vague pronoun references. i've nothing to hide.

today, in no particular order:

*a weird night with riley
*good alone time in n centralia
*a really screwy evening
*frustrating, circular tiffs with my mom
*a really good time with sean
*cigarettes
*a surprisingly small amount of annoyance with my self in regards to last night
*tears spilling out ( Read more... )

My previous writing just disappeared, but I'm strangely calm about it. Oh well. I'll start again.

Today:
*breakfast with Rowen, Joe, Matt and family
*emailing Riley
*calling eli* and not being terrified
*finally getting my rental app faxed
*Pride in Oly with Emily - yay!
*working 4-10:30 with Jaime
*some really good conversations with Jaime
*finally meeting ( Read more... )

I am not lonely, really. Just really, really alone. So terribly alone.

Paige: Best book and best movie you've seen in the last year and why they're the best.

Best book: I read Anna Karenina a few months ago and it was a stuggle and overwhelming, but I was blown away by Tolstoy's character development and ability to hold a plot - or at least an engaging story line - through such tricky waters. I can't remember what I ( Read more... )

Everyone has things they blog about. Everyone has things they don't blog about. Challenge me out of my comfort zone by telling me something I don't blog about, but you'd like to hear about, and I'll write a post about it/just answer your question. Ask for anything: latest movie watched, last book read, political leanings, etc. Repost in your own ( Read more... )

And also, if I'm going to keep true to myself and not put up with shit, I've got to get through this alone. I know I can - I always can, I always do. But that doesn't mean it's the funnest or easiest way, though ( Read more... )

The email has been sent. ::cowers::

Also, becuase the car broke down Wednesday, I'm biking to work. Yup - biking 2 miles to be to work at 9am, working 9 hours and biking back...!

And * has always made me socially awkward and now * is making me generally uncomfortable. I have this hunch that * is scaring me because * is scaring *self. Hmm.

The people who usually come through for me aren't doing so this time. But I'm not falling apart yet.