And also, if I'm going to keep true to myself and not put up with shit, I've got to get through this alone. I know I can - I always can, I always do. But that doesn't mean it's the funnest or easiest way, though ( Read more... )

Originally posted at 10:35pm on 10/08/07 but the image didn't show up so I'm reposting

I have been going utterly, truly insane lately. I haven't ever cried this constantly - and I've cried a lot.

What keeps me sane:

• Plotting a semi-surprise attack on Sam*
  
• Packing so as to move in with Sam*
  
• My sister
  
• Sam* in general
  

Oh, and painting:


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Gawd. I totally forgot what classes I am taking this fall. I just checked and...oh gawd...I've never taken classes like this before...I've only ever taken English and art - which I'm good at - and math lab classes which are more like unschooling than college.
CARDIO KICKBOXING 10:00 - 10:50
DESIGN 12:00 - 02:30
FOUR-FIELD ANTHROPOLOGY 01:00 - 03:30
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When I come back from camp, everything has changed. Each time I take a breath I feel like I am breathing in a completely new way.

But this is not like that. This is like tectonic plates shifting a little. Most people don't even notice the shifting because it's all under the skin, all out of sight. But if you look closer. If you do. You'll see the ( Read more... )

I'm so effin' lonely.

This photography class is killing me, too. I got a 93% on this last assignment. Not happy with myself. And I'm going to seriously fuck up the mid term. Shit.

Julie showed me my math score, though, even though she wasn't supposed to yet, and that made me happy: a 91%. Hells yes. I studied that chapter for four or five hours ( Read more... )