Yanked from a few people, but wow!

the "sick system" to keep someone under your thumb

Stressful week. One big meal a day (resturant). A cup of caffeine (green tea) in the morning with some oatmeal. Bowl of special K. Water. Lots of things to do at work - it's like having two jobs: my regular job and working for someone else and still only having the same amount of time to get both jobs done. I'm exhausted. Can't think at night in ( Read more... )

finding a way to be happy
preferring drug induced calmness
to chaotic memory

Re-organized (8 Oct 08)

preferring chaotic memory
to drug induced calmness
finding a way to be happy

I've been reading Wendell Berry's works including his essays, poems, and scathing condemnation of the USDA's policies. I went looking for more recent pieces and found a May 2008 article in Harper's on Limitless Consumerism. Sobering.

I had a good day defending my projects but feel like crap. Being in pain clouds my mind. I had to go to work for a heap big important meeting and it took every scrap of self-control I had not to chastise my colleagues as they tried to nibble on my piece of pie for the next five years. Hmph. My back is killing me. I've taken my muscle relaxer/anti- ( Read more... )

I witnessed my basement flooding after 9 inches of rain. The carpet area was destroyed. The tile survived. The sump pump functioned but was overwhelmed. The water was clear with only a little sediment. There was dirty water in the toilet and the tub in the basement. It quickly dried on the tile surfaces after the rain stopped and the ground started ( Read more... )

I was crying earlier because of a few things ( Read more... )

Thursday I bent over to put my lunch in the fridge and *twinge* so I took the normal precautions - lay down, stretch, yoga, relax. No relief. I went home from work to lie in bed and relax. All crunched up. 1000 mg of ibuprofen. *jerk* *jerk* Lower back charley horse. Extreme pain. No radiant or referral pain in legs. Went to emergency room at 7 am ( Read more... )

destiny controlled by will
power injected into the universe
living in untold manifested dreams
ordained for the gods
in torturous success
it's all too much
for the partitioned soul
searching now
for a simple spell
to bring oblivion

I have no idea what I am going to do today.