I hit a black hole the other day that i still haven't gotten out of. Triggered by bad mail and a father who seeminly just didn't care, i spiraled out of control. No, I did not kill myself over an insurence cancelation notice. It was only a trigger. It was a mix of anger towards my father and home life, memories, 532 other things, and an illness ( Read more... )

7:25. Wow. I am deathly ill. I am so ill, i ws numb to the shower and it was all the way up. As hot as it gets, that is how cold and ill i am. I don't care though, I am actually happy. This whole time, i thought I was going to have to pretend to be ill on x-mas day. This is a laod off my back. My dad, however, is blaming the second missing item ( Read more... )

( IM NOT UPSET! )