...and then i shall go to bed
So i thought i got lucky when i discovered a drug called Nembutal on the alt.suicide.methods forum. It is illegal here in the US but easy enough to buy online through places like China. 15 grams is enough to kill you, but costs over 300$ for that amount. i don't have 300$ and even if i did i would hate to spend that kind of money and have it not work. i was so excited too. i forget how expensive drugs are. So that is that i guess. i will try and remember the name for when i do come across that kind of money. Like during tax season. For now i will just do like i normally do and bare life.
i followed that cunt Casey Murphy's new Tumblr. i hate her posts of her stupid cunt face and he fucking cat and The Cure songs. i hope someone breaks her fucking heart. i want someone to do the same to her that she did to me and countless other guys from what i hear. what a cunt.
i am craving Mountain Dew again. It's been happening a lot at night, before bed, i start to crave citrusy sodas like Mountain Dew. i wonder if it means something.
Work went well today. Per usual i was anxious over nothing and dreading going to work for no reason. All the dogs ate on my side today which i am extremely proud of. i hope i don't get in trouble for cleaning the bathroom only sub-par. Shit, i probably will. i fucking hate cleaning the bathroom.
i'm glad i have been writing in my lj again. It has been helping. i wish it were easier to find friends through lj though. They should let you do a search for people by location. i want to stock people or at least find other lonely people. i think i will do that right now actually. i am going to attempt to find sad pathetic people like myself.
i followed that cunt Casey Murphy's new Tumblr. i hate her posts of her stupid cunt face and he fucking cat and The Cure songs. i hope someone breaks her fucking heart. i want someone to do the same to her that she did to me and countless other guys from what i hear. what a cunt.
i am craving Mountain Dew again. It's been happening a lot at night, before bed, i start to crave citrusy sodas like Mountain Dew. i wonder if it means something.
Work went well today. Per usual i was anxious over nothing and dreading going to work for no reason. All the dogs ate on my side today which i am extremely proud of. i hope i don't get in trouble for cleaning the bathroom only sub-par. Shit, i probably will. i fucking hate cleaning the bathroom.
i'm glad i have been writing in my lj again. It has been helping. i wish it were easier to find friends through lj though. They should let you do a search for people by location. i want to stock people or at least find other lonely people. i think i will do that right now actually. i am going to attempt to find sad pathetic people like myself.