So, I didn't really get to finish my previous journal. I kind of took more time than I expected to flush things out. Anyway, that boy didn't come over. I asked to see more pics and immediately knew I wasn't feeling it. Same thing happened tonight. Guy was real eager to come over. He only ever sent one picture. I was horny so I said he could come ( Read more... )

I came out at 14. I came out because I didn't know anyone and I had decided, for reasons beyond me, that it was important I present my true self to new people; people who could potentially be lifelong friends. As I look back at the decisions in my life I realize I often made decisions, good decisions, that I did for reasons way beyond my ( Read more... )

I'm not sure how long it's been since I posted last. I didn't look and I don't want to take the time to look right now. I'm thinking it's been about a year, but maybe it hasn't been that long or maybe it's been longer. I'm going to start where it seems appropriate to start. I'm in Green Bay now. I got the assistant professor position. Funny how at ( Read more... )

It's been a little while since my last post. This post won't be solely about relationships. Believe it or not, there are a number of other things going on in my life ( Read more... )

I write that reconciliation would be impossible and then you go and make it seem possible ( Read more... )

I would if I could, but I don't because I didn't know ( Read more... )

After a two hour nap this A.M. I was up and starting my day despite my body's objection for more sleep. Even though it had been hours since I had last eaten, and even then it wasn't a big dinner, I wasn't hungry. I could tell this was a result of the events of the previous night. At some point during the night my stomach dropped from the ( Read more... )

Tonight was the culmination of so more than I could ever have imagined. And now that it is all said and done, I must admit it was very cathartic ( Read more... )

Can't say I'm very proud of my actions lately... well, since August anyway. I use to feel like an adult. I use to feel like I was beyond so much of what I've been doing. Reverting back, or allowing myself to do certain things, things I thought I had outgrown, has resulted in this duality - this pull between what I think I should be doing and what I ( Read more... )

I haven't posted to Live Journal in over five years... That's really crazy to me. My last post talked about Jose. I can't help but laugh about that. So much changes so fast, while at the same time so little changes so slow ( Read more... )