( The Addict )

Waiting for Lou Reed to finish uploading to my MP3 player so I can go on a walk with my lovely music ( Read more... )

Fucking sinking into the black pit of despair again. Remember why laying on the floor listening to depressing music once made sense. Forcing myself to move, to sleep, to eat. Not doing all that well at it. Still holding it together for the majority of the day, meeting expectations. Hope comes Wednesday in the form of a psychiatrist visit. Went in ( Read more... )

Right now I am an emotional mess. I've been sick now for about two weeks, and completely exhausted. Earlier this week I stopped being able to breathe clearly, so I went to see a doctor Tuesday after work. She prescribed some decongestants and told me to come back once they kicked in so that she could listen to my lungs. Well, they kicked in, but ( Read more... )

My Dad's Christmas card to me, along with a check for quite a bit of money, did little to promote holiday cheer. ( It read as follows: )

I'm feeling a bit guilty, and more than a bit lazy. Last week I was stressed and not getting enough sleep, so this weekend I mostly sat around and slept the daylight hours away. Today I called in sick, although I'm perfectly healthy. I have about 10 sick days built up (with an extra added on each month) that expire June 1st, so I figured today was ( Read more... )

New Years Eve was pretty fucking weird. I went to this party with a lot of kids I hadn't seen in ages, accompanied by Kevin, Andre and Jimmy. Completely unexpected company, but fun to see some old familiar faces and catch up with people. Kevin and company weren't enjoying it much though, so we left early. I ended up missing the midnight celebration ( Read more... )

It has occurred to me recently that I don't have many friends in Eugene anymore, except for my roommate and my coworkers. I am more antisocial at this point in my life than I ever have been. Now that I am not taking any classes, I have more free time than ever before. My coworkers are always busy with their significant others and/or second jobs, ( Read more... )

I'm in Beaverton and have extra time for once, so here's me wasting it...

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This is SUCH a shitty time to be taking out loans for school. Why must I have been born into a country in debt? Why must education cost so damn much? And why won't my job just fucking promote me already ( Read more... )