Back on duty, and the labs are normal again. Everything's been put into place and cleaned up...but I still can't stop thinking about Jeremy. It's hard to believe that I'm never going to see him again. I made a message to send to his mother, but what in the hell am I supposed to say to her? Jeremy died shoving me through the door. He knew it was ( Read more... )

 I knew saying that stuff to him was going to be hard...but gods. I still want to message him, telling him it was all just a big mistake and I didn't mean it. Well, the last part's true, at any rate. I didn't mean it. But I can't lie to myself anymore and it's not fair to him to keep pretending. He'll see that it's for the best, one day. I just ( Read more... )

Well, now I remember why I don't do lapidary work more often! Cutting and polishing gems is a chore in and of itself, but I forgot how much work it is to get the stones into the proper setting! Also, me being me, I took my gloves off for just a couple of minutes and ended up burning my left palm all to hell and my right palm is singed a little too ( Read more... )

 Gah...reports are done but I am NEVER staying up that late EVER again. I ate half of a 3 meat pizza, drank 4 Vanilla Cokes and 2 glasses of chocolate milk, and had most of a pint of Ben and Jerry's Karmel Sutra ice cream and didn't get to bed until after 4 a.m. Now I feel sicker than a dog and I wonder if it's all just the weird food combos/weird ( Read more... )

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I've had a lot of time to think lately, and I'm not sure if that's a good thing or a bad thing. First I was hurt, then I was angry, and now I think I'm hitting the depressed stage. What am I doing wrong that every relationship I've ever had ends up this way? Is there something I'm doing wrong? Am I picking the wrong people? Am I just made of epic ( Read more... )

Well, I think I just set the Enterprise record for shortest amount of time of having a girlfriend. FML. Actually, fuck everything. Pearson can finish the damned tests. I'm going to have some 6 string therapy.

Things are going reasonably well as we head toward Christmas. I got some gifts from my folks as well as my various uncles, aunts and cousins. Knowing Cousin Larry, his gift will be on the more interesting side of the spectrum ( Read more... )

Locked from Mira

Great. I screwed everything up like I usually do. I pushed Mira a little too far by kissing her like a lovesick fool and now I have no idea what to do. I guess I'm just un fracaso. But then again, I already knew that where girls are concerned. I'd better just focus on my work and try to forget about her ( Read more... )

YAY! Whoever it was that took my holos has finally returned them! I found them sitting on my desk when I came on shift this morning. I almost feel bad for them...but not quite. Who knows how many of my dance routines special moments they combed through in the hopes of finding some good dirt? Oh well. Punishment fit the crime in my book ( Read more... )