State of the Robin
It strikes me as odd that I have a normal life. I guess I do but I don't. I do live in Japan, but hey, so does everyone here. And true, my music career is teetering uncertainly as I finish my hiatus. And yes, I know I have to leave here and I don't know when or where I'll go. And granted, I have a small cold. But for now, the wheel is lifting me up.
I start subbing March 4. More money, yea. And even without the promotion I've been able to start paying off my student loans while simultaneously surviving and even traveling a bit. I'm in a fulfilling, stimulating relationship with a man I totally love. My bassist now doubles on trombone.
I feel successful. I've felt that in high school, but I was rarely paid for any of it then. But I'm finally in a place where I don't feel incompetent about virtually anything. I am really good at my job, I have a lot of friends here, and everything is falling into place.
I'd be set if I didn't want to trade up Japan for America, a teaching gig for a life of music and arts. It's a little unsettling that I could be set if I stayed doing this forever. But I know I can't.
Anyway, the point of this was not to gloat. I know a lot of you are having a hard time right now. I've just written so many depressing posts that I needed to take a moment to realize how truly good things are, even if I know some of them can't last. And by that, I mean Japan and the job.
I start subbing March 4. More money, yea. And even without the promotion I've been able to start paying off my student loans while simultaneously surviving and even traveling a bit. I'm in a fulfilling, stimulating relationship with a man I totally love. My bassist now doubles on trombone.
I feel successful. I've felt that in high school, but I was rarely paid for any of it then. But I'm finally in a place where I don't feel incompetent about virtually anything. I am really good at my job, I have a lot of friends here, and everything is falling into place.
I'd be set if I didn't want to trade up Japan for America, a teaching gig for a life of music and arts. It's a little unsettling that I could be set if I stayed doing this forever. But I know I can't.
Anyway, the point of this was not to gloat. I know a lot of you are having a hard time right now. I've just written so many depressing posts that I needed to take a moment to realize how truly good things are, even if I know some of them can't last. And by that, I mean Japan and the job.