It's Thursday night, do you know where your children are?
so lately i have no desire to be around anyone, do anything, have any sort of conversation lasting longer than, "hey," go to class... all i really want to do is sleep. its so strange! i'm not depressed or upset or uncared for, i'm just... blah.
i dunno? its been coming along for a while now... i think its the people i live with. i was so incredibly upset when i found out they were going to close helyar, but i honestly couldn't care less what they do with this place as long as i continue to receive my scholarship. i just find myself highly annoyed with all but 4 out of 17 people... thats a problem! and that kind of problem makes you look at yourself, because there's no way that 13 people can be douche bags. but, they ARE! everyone here is a self-concerned, gossiping, two-faced douche bag and i hate them for it.
on another note, even though i haven't seen him in almost a week... things are going well. he makes me smile when i'm in the worst of moods, which is really important. we're going to a halloween party on saturday and i have no idea what i'm going to be... complications! i have a set of butterfly wings from senior year, but somehow i'd feel wrong if i wore them, i don't care to comment on why... and if you have an idea why: shut the hell up and mind your own business! lol
i don't know what i'm going to do about next year, but i'll be in helyar for at least once semester. i miss my g-town girls (and a few of the guys)... its hard to say who i'm still friends with from home because i didn't really see anyone over the summer. life... don't you ever wonder when it'll all end? i sure do.
g'night children, much love