My current state of mind... ideas, thoughts, fears, depression all working to tear me apart. I've been like this again the past couple nights. My paranoia, rather than easily being realized as ridiculous and unnecessary, sometimes comes across as such incredible, usually painful moments of clarity. Things that I do not want to believe... but even ( Read more... )

25 years has been long enough... I don't have the strength to deal with this shit anymore... I don't know that I can wait for the heart attack that may not come for another several years and may not even succeed in killing me.. or any other form of natural death I may have to look forward to.

Haven't really had too much going on since the last post. Boss is a pain in the ass as usual, same difficult relationship, we start moving out of this house tomorrow, and I graduated with my Associates degree today. Although I actually don't know where my degree is... it may be in the po box or it may not have even been mailed to me yet. I suppose ( Read more... )

I think I actually like the pain brought on by the work I'm doing... another part of it that makes me feel like I'm actually doing something perhaps ( Read more... )

I wonder if the best thing I can do for some people is to just allow them to forget they know me ( Read more... )

so now I'm also being barred out of the house. What the hell... I'd like to know why the hell the people in this house have gotten so god damn security crazy recently. Surely the next step will be taking the old mans shotguns and setting traps up behind all the doors into the house in case someone manages to get past the deadbolt and slide-bolts ( Read more... )

I'm so fucking sick of living here... hopefully if I start working full-time soon it'll be enough to get us out ( Read more... )

I think I was just very slightly drunk tonight.. though the feeling didn't last too long. I seem to be developing an appreciation for wine.. went to a tasting tonight with a couple people from the school, thought it was going to be a sizable club function or something but.. like I said to them, people from our major don't get organized for anything ( Read more... )

Correct me if I'm wrong, but it is the motherboard which usually comes with a package of screws to mount the board onto the case right? I have received two motherboards from ASRock that came with no screws at all... which is proving to be a problem with the second board because I have to install it in a new tower and I have no grounding screws to ( Read more... )

Idea: Take pictures of recipes from the text book, download them to the computer, print them out and then scan as a text document ( Read more... )