I'm waiting for a package today I didn't realize was coming. It's a karmic slap in the face. I can't quite figure out if I'm somewhere in the right, or somewhere in the wrong. But walking along in the gray area has never been something I enjoyed. It's pretty bad when half of yourself can't even know if the other half is playing games or not. It's ( Read more... )

I think I have to wonder at what point desire turns into habit. My want is kind of just a security blanket now. It goes up, it goes down, but slowly it's turning into a bitterness I did not want to feel. The sneaking suspicion that I am just going through the motions looms underneath me. I have to ask: Shouldn't I be used to it by now?

No.

Ugh. Hate you.

Hate you, hate you, hate you.

I'm going to be sorry that I got up at 6:30am. But I can't stop the indulgence of going to bed early. Then I end up getting up early. I never thought I'd be a morning person, but I think it's more an affinity for the time of day in which I can be alone. That used to be late nights, but it's not so much that way anymore. Granted--I have an odd ( Read more... )

My stomach is killing me and I am very, very grumpy. I can't recall a time when I actually missed having a cycle. Don't think about what that means too hard. But with blood sugar under control your body does all sorts of normal things. Annoying ( Read more... )

Sometimes I wonder if I should stop reading Postsecret.com. It's kind of got this horrible ache going on, especially recently. But I suppose it's the grounding, good sort of ache.

Anyway, this postcard killed me.
( Post Secret )

I figured I'd spend a considerable amount, but not nearly so much as I did. Tomorrow I'll wake up with a spending hangover where I look through my checkbook and realize I'm going to have to figure out bills a little differently. Also, the speeding ticket doesn't help. Believe me, I had it comin', because out of the 5 times I've been pulled over for ( Read more... )

FitDay.com, aside from being an anorexic wetdream is a pretty fantastic site. You enter food, and activities for the day and it calculates a wealth of interesting information like percentage of RDA nutrition met, percent of calories from fats, carbs, and protiens, and calories burned for the day. The great thing is that it's all based on your ( Read more... )

I was inspired to embrace my shallowness after watching Project Runway all day. This, paired with America's Next Top Model, I feel pretty hideous, but OMG I love those shows.

So I played around with colors and a banner. I'm not sure how long it will last. :)

Has anyone actually ever received a free credit report without having to sign up for some ridiculous identity theft/credit report club?

( Holy shit this turned into a rant )