WARNING: THE FOLLOWING ENTRY IS ME VENTING.

im so angry with myself its not funny. and this could be completely stupid but the truth is, i hate the fact that i don't have confidence. now, i realize sometimes it can come off that i do, but those are only certain situations. the times when i actually need confidence its like, my confidence tank runs ( Read more... )

finals are done with ( Read more... )

"It's 5:55 am on monday, August 7th. The sun is rising. I can hear the
traffic starting to wake up on the 5. The early birdies are beginning
to sing.

I pull the fifteen passenger van into the driveway and kill the
engine. I let the silence sink in. Inhale. Exhale, slowly. Inhale.
Close your eyes. Breathe. It's been a long trip. I am home. Home.

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wow, who knew that a little communication could fix so much? things are starting to look up. :)

i need to do something to take my mind off things...any suggestions? (preferably legal, thanks  ; )

so i seem to have this running trend of updating my live journal about once a month. whatever, im going to run with it. here's a brief overview of what's been going:

• the winter break was nice and much needed. i didn't get to ( Read more... )

so im thinking about getting a dog next year when i live in an actual house. that is if my housemates approve. any suggestions??

Dear Person,

WHY DO YOU CARE SO MUCH?

i really don't understand. its scares me. a lot. but not in a bad way, i think.

i really appreciate all that you've done for me these past few months, i hope you know that.

if i stay, you'd be one of the main reasons why.

sincerely yours,

me.

its hard to know that when you look at someone, they don't see you back the same way. sometimes i wonder what people really do see. and not just in me. in the world. you know that feeling you get when you feel like you're watching a movie of your life as it moves in front of you instead of living it? like you're the audience of the movie that IS ( Read more... )

this weekend was fun/exhausting ( Read more... )