i have been told that there are two ways to respond to fear:

to run from it

or to be fascinated by it.

i am noticing a pattern to my behavior.

searching for the unsettling.

the frightening.

the mad.

i don't know what this means.

. . .

do i have a death wish?

i watched some silent hill playthroughs today.

they reminded me of you.

i don't know whether that makes me happy or sad.

but i know i miss you.

sometimes, screaming into the void like this helps.

sometimes it doesn't.

i am remembering ( Read more... )