Ive been having another week full of dreams. I love when this happens. I just wish I could remember the ones I really liked ( Read more... )

Ive been so terribly conflicted. picking the right school was half the battle; now I have to pick the next fork in my life, and with every narrower path, the more scared I am of picking the wrong way ( Read more... )

it was no coincidence
that when I thought of death,
my eyes were drawn
to the wilted, crisped flowers.
the most delicate touch
could dismantle their world entirely.

the blood in his veins laid still,
clotted and cold.
my fingers gave his a delicate touch.

it dismantled my world entirely.

dreamed of daddy last night .. it was frightening and soothing at the same time. I was entering a vast, what seemed to stretch out for miles on end, hospital, or what used to be- it looked like it was in ruins, no walls standing, craters and cracks varying in size in the floor with questionable substances on it. the atmosphere was a bright white ( Read more... )

work has defined my summer, and I'm okay with that. most of the time. my hours have been too short lately and they bother me .. working 7-2 on sundays leaves me so tired that I could literally pass in and out of consciousness .. not even my phone would wake me, which is rare. so that will be my tomorrow ( Read more... )

I was going to write something nice.
it's been a while since I've been able to write a poem.
but something came up tonight.

so here's a reminder.

daddy, where will you be? I fear another late august night. you wont be here to shelter me from these depths .. and then I'll have no one to hold on to.

I find ways every. single. fucking. time.

I'm spoiled, I'm spoiled, I'm spoiled ( Read more... )

my father passed away monday (5/5/08) morning, at 11:30am at nieghborhood hospice in chester county. he was first diagnosed with stage 3b lung cancer back in october 2007, only caught after discovering blood clots in his legs. I learned of this news the next monday, for my parents only wanted me to have a carefree birthday party that weekend ( Read more... )