I HATE HIM!!!! UGUGUGGGGGH.  He asks me what he can do to help fix me,(i.e. the mess he made me into), and then when ( a couple weeks later) I tell him he needs to prove himself not an asshole, he gets all defensive and offended and brings up past things.  Like, how when he asked me to stop self-loathing he didn't need me to prove it to him, he ( Read more... )

I have needs that are unfulfilled and no one's going to fill them, no matter how hard I try to find someone who will.  I guess I'm feeling neglected, missing the romance that we once had, so I find myself talking to ex-boyfriends who I know are good for boosting me back up.  But they don't even do that anymore.  No one wants to want me ( Read more... )

Yes, he did say sweet things to me today, but when he says something so ridiculously stupid and shallow (like about the boobs thing today), it negates all the good stuff he's ever said.  I know, maybe that's not fair.  But it's just so insensitive.  And he doesn't care. At all.  He wants to be his own person and shit.  I don't want to change him.  ( Read more... )

I'm having an ugly day ( Read more... )

Not even 24 hours home and already annoys me.  I just can't stand that my Nana and my sister are arguing, it's so much negativity, and I really didn't come home for that.  I wanted a place to relax and not really care about stuff, but it's hard to do that when this place is a constant war zone ( Read more... )

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I don't get what's wrong with me

It's like a second dose of teen angst...but not really.  I don't think I'm always right, I don't hate my parents, I don't think that no one understands me... I'm just so frustrated.  Anything can set me off, and then I get into this blah-whatever mood, and sometimes it lingers.  And then sometimes it leaves.  And ( Read more... )

 I had a couple of weird dreams last night.
  First, my voice teacher Kasey.  I dreamt that she told me that my breathing was weak and that I had to sing the whole 30 minutes, nonstop.  I think that stems from the fact that I feel like I am getting progressively worse.  I'm flat, I need to breathe every two seconds (exaggeration).  I dunno, I guess ( Read more... )

So..uh.. I haven't written in this thing in a while.

Junior year is going good.  I'm the Costume Mistress for theatre.  I'm in experimental psych and it's kicking my ass.  Grad school searching is interesting.  Not many places have Human Sexuality or Sex Therapy, and some of the places I have contacted told me that they no longer offer the program ( Read more... )