Well, today started off great i was following my diet plan=) then my mom made cake..one of my fav. so.. i thought to myself ( Read more... )

I binged today again, i hate myself.

went to the gym weight myself...109.8....worked out..lost about 230 cals and did 30 crunches..ussualy i do about 100 but some guy wouldnt stop stairing at me..So..I left..

Lastnight was a drepressing night, binged then cut up my leg, then to make matters worse i went threw the stuff my ex-boyfriend came me (e.i letters, presents etc) That made me even more sad considering im still in love with him. This morning i took all of the letter cept 4 of them and put then in the trash, thats where they should be since we've ( Read more... )

Well...day 3 was a failure...had tuna with mayonnaise low cal mayonnaise tho and about 2 hand fulls of chocolate chips.. All my hard work is gone... How could i do this.. Like Fuck.. i puked some of it up tho..and im going to be going to the gym later on.. hopefuly i'll lose about 300 cals atleast there.. that should help.. i've decided insead of a ( Read more... )

*Well, first off i'd just like to say yesterday (day 2) I had a small tiny salada with some low cal dressing and before i went to work i had a nectorin.*

Day 3 Of My Fast:

• Tired
• Weak
• Only Had water
• Took my vitamins
• I think im going to eat a small salade again

Day 2 of my fast:

• going good
• feeling tired
• head hurts abit
• took my vitamins
• had orange juice :s

Day one of my fast:

• going good 
• went for a run this morning
• only had water and orange juice (84 cals)
• going to the gym later on
• took my vitanins

Im such a fucking failure! I work in a ice cream polar..and last night after my shift i got a chocolate shake! thats like 250 cals! And i had ice cream!!! Omg..Im such a fat pig! I need to stop this.. my fast is now starting tomorow cuz my mom is going back to work and tomorows her first day so there wont be any pressure to eat! Thank God! Hopefuly ( Read more... )

After i horrible day yesterday i feel good today...I woke up the sun shining, I dont have to work till 4. I had something small for breakfast and i didnt even eat it all..right now im just drinking some CoLd water! I plan on drinking that and only that for the next couple of days. But if i feel a binge comming along i'll just eat somme salade.. ( Read more... )

Yet another horrible day.. i cryed myself to sleep lastnight...im not sure why i was just feeling so ugly..fat..alone..etc.. im 112 pounds and 5"5 i think... i had Mc Donalds..*tears* this week...Wow..im such a failure... i truely wish this would all end.. like.. i had Mc donalds.. i prolly had about 700 cals alone in that meal! I guess everyone ( Read more... )