he came back....maybe itll help him a bit. I cannot believe it. its like a dream come true. The davening paid off. Of course the reasons he came back arent good ones (his friends getting busted for drugs....HE couldve been) mayb G-d listened to my prayers to watch over him. I hope, if so ill continue for him. i guess thats it

so i spoke to my old friend tonight who is in israel and we just talked about everything and how we feel about each other and i think we might give it another try. I dont know how smart that is but wuts the worst that can happen....hes truely the only guy ive never been over. the guy i compare every other guy to i just feel like im betraying ppl if ( Read more... )

You know those times where you sit and just wander into the world you have created in your head to be your utopia? I've been spending alot of time there lately.....I've been trying to make sense of all the shit I've been around lately. Love wise....Life wise....It's like this: tonight i called the ex that im still very much in love with, and he ( Read more... )

I hate this feeling. I still love him....Im not over him, hes moved on and im not over him. Its so wierd usually im the one who moves on but i cant. This really sweet guy asked me out and i turned him down because he has no reason to be the victim of rebound. I have has one hookup since and i wasnt even interested in it, i just thought it would ( Read more... )

so its been a while.....a long while. my bf and i officially broke up. it was sad even though i did it. i cried myself to sleep that night listening to all these sad songs. i hate breaking up. i thought things were going so well i really did but then we started to fight again and i realized that i wasnt ready to take on a relatonship especially one ( Read more... )

so today was a crazy day i had off from school. Jake my cousin, went into the hospital and had surgery but hes ok. im SOOOO tired i cant deal with it anymore. my sweetie told me something today and i think he thinks im backing off but im not in fact i think i fell for him more knowing he now has a flaw, i was beginning to wry. I miss him so much ( Read more... )

so i get to school right? prepared to have a day from hell and instead i have off completely!!!!!!! im so happy, so i spoke to my baby for a whole 5 seconds, but it was worth it. i miss him so much its not normal i just saw him yesterday it makes no sense, what does this mean??? i know, or at least think i know that i dont love him, but god damn i ( Read more... )

so i went shopping with my sis and mom and sis in law today and it was kinda nice to just chill with the girls, ya know? i made 45 babysitting last nite, and my baby came over and we chilled and watched the ring it was a cool nite i came home at 1230 and showered. I hate school i mean i just dont know wut to do everyone is telling me to put in my ( Read more... )