The Good the Bad and Me
I'll take the Good with the Bad.
The BAD -
I'm a horrible mother and I am wallowing in self hatred right now for how I treated Audrey earlier today. She is slightly sick with a cough and as a result is extra whiny. Tonight I simply had had enough of her hightened emotions and after Audrey freaked out in the bathtub (even at 4 the girl still screams when I wash the shampoo out of her hair) something just snapped in me. I yelled, "SHUT UP!" to her once I had pulled my daughter out of the water and wrapped a towel around her. I then ran to my room and flung myself on the bed in an effort to block everything out. I hate that I cannot be patient with her. I hate even more that I said those awful words. She's asleep now and all I can think about is how I can take my horrible articulation of anger and make it up to her.
The Florida ER debacle is coming back to haunt us. A few months ago a bill from the Orlando hospital for 900 hundred some odd dollars was sent to our home. I've been making small payments each month, but apparently that is not good enough. Those greedy bastards want Sam and I to pay in full or we will get sent to collections. I'm sorry, but we are dirt poor right now until I can find a job - no way we could ever pay that amount unless we wanted to deplete our savings. All this for an IV to rehydrate my daughter. Hindsight is always 50/50 and if I knew now what we would be dealing with from taking Audrey to the ER for the flu then I would have gone to a walk in clinic.
The GOOD -
Sam and I are getting our high speed internet back tomorrow for less than we were paying before. Soon I will be able to catch up with LJ, myspace, facebook, and twilightmoms (yes, I joined - such a nerd am I. I blame ami_sue for telling me about the forum and also starlitlexy for encouraging me).
Sheresa called me back today. Ani DiFranco is definitely a yes now. My former co worker, her girlfriend and I will be driving out to Royal Oak, MI on October 7th for some folk. I'm so happy. I had resigned myself to the enevitabliity that I would not be able to see my favorite musician this year ... the first time since 2004, but thankfully this was not the case. The show is general admission though, so getting good seats may be a problem. Well, I'll bring my binoculars if I have to. I'm so happy this all worked out!
The BAD -
I'm a horrible mother and I am wallowing in self hatred right now for how I treated Audrey earlier today. She is slightly sick with a cough and as a result is extra whiny. Tonight I simply had had enough of her hightened emotions and after Audrey freaked out in the bathtub (even at 4 the girl still screams when I wash the shampoo out of her hair) something just snapped in me. I yelled, "SHUT UP!" to her once I had pulled my daughter out of the water and wrapped a towel around her. I then ran to my room and flung myself on the bed in an effort to block everything out. I hate that I cannot be patient with her. I hate even more that I said those awful words. She's asleep now and all I can think about is how I can take my horrible articulation of anger and make it up to her.
The Florida ER debacle is coming back to haunt us. A few months ago a bill from the Orlando hospital for 900 hundred some odd dollars was sent to our home. I've been making small payments each month, but apparently that is not good enough. Those greedy bastards want Sam and I to pay in full or we will get sent to collections. I'm sorry, but we are dirt poor right now until I can find a job - no way we could ever pay that amount unless we wanted to deplete our savings. All this for an IV to rehydrate my daughter. Hindsight is always 50/50 and if I knew now what we would be dealing with from taking Audrey to the ER for the flu then I would have gone to a walk in clinic.
The GOOD -
Sam and I are getting our high speed internet back tomorrow for less than we were paying before. Soon I will be able to catch up with LJ, myspace, facebook, and twilightmoms (yes, I joined - such a nerd am I. I blame ami_sue for telling me about the forum and also starlitlexy for encouraging me).
Sheresa called me back today. Ani DiFranco is definitely a yes now. My former co worker, her girlfriend and I will be driving out to Royal Oak, MI on October 7th for some folk. I'm so happy. I had resigned myself to the enevitabliity that I would not be able to see my favorite musician this year ... the first time since 2004, but thankfully this was not the case. The show is general admission though, so getting good seats may be a problem. Well, I'll bring my binoculars if I have to. I'm so happy this all worked out!