Yeah, so, I've been thinking and dwelling and putting the psychological smackdown on myself and I've decided it's all over. Everything. Ended. Finished. I've said everything I needed to say to everyone. Done everything I need to do. I just have to start over from scratch. I'm now hated by some people that I cared deeply about. And I guess ( Read more... )

I'm trying to put things into perspective here. It's all so fucked, I don't know. I saw the famous "him" again yesterday. Quite randomly. I stopped in Prather to drop off cans, and I turn around, and whaddya know? There he is. I took a peek at his journal...dammit, I know, I'm addicted. To quote, he said "i'm gonna kick her ass. no joke. god ( Read more... )

So, I thought I was doing all right. I thought everything was fine. He was gone from my life...obliterated. Then what happens? He comes to me in my dreams. Fucker. How dare he? Both he and his goofball friend *the goofball really is a cool guy, I promise*. Anyways, I'm not going into detail, it's not necessary, but I keep thinking of him ( Read more... )

I see you hanging around. I have no intention of talking to you. I can't even aproach you because my legs don't work. They turn to jello, and my toes tingle. I can't feel my hands. They turn cold. My mouth feels like I swallowed sand. My stomach is full of butterflies, and they fly so quickly that they tickle my throat and choke me up. So, ( Read more... )

I AM: broken ( Read more... )

Mom's in Vancouver...yee-haw, cowboy.

So, last night was fun. Brianne ditched school yesterday, and we went out and dicked around. First we stopped at Riverpark...TOTALLY uneventful. Then we drove around the Tower District, and went to the Brass Unicorn. My babysitter from when I was five owns it. Anyways, I saw Tara, my best friend when I was five...weird! So, me and Bri totally ( Read more... )

...feel so restless, you just pray for death ( Read more... )

Dave Navarro and Carmen Electra are so beautiful. I'm jealous.

Typical self-sabotage. Gotta love it. Memo to self: NEVER admit it. If you must recognize feelings, hide them with everything in you. Then you'll be safe forever. Safe and alone. OH? What's that? Lonliness sucks? Too fucking bad, it's better than being stupid and rejected all the time. I'd rather be lonely and sad, instead of getting my ( Read more... )