Holy shit, I need to suck it up.
Yeah, so, I've been thinking and dwelling and putting the psychological smackdown on myself and I've decided it's all over. Everything. Ended. Finished. I've said everything I needed to say to everyone. Done everything I need to do. I just have to start over from scratch. I'm now hated by some people that I cared deeply about. And I guess that's ok. A little ouch. But okay. I'm cutting myself off from most of the public world. I'm gonna be pretty much a hermit until I'm once again ready to emerge. Everything scares me. I'm invisible. I don't want to be invisible anymore. People only see what they wanna see. People don't want to see a disgusting fat ugly slob, therefore they won't see me. So I'll just hide until I want to be seen. So why don't y'all take that and shove it up your asses. Lots of love. Good bye for now.