Comments | phoenix_kaji: Now more than ever...

phoenix_kaji

Now more than ever...

Jul 04, 2007 21:10

...I need help.

For once, I don't even feel like giving everyone an earful of the details of what's happening right now. Probably because I'm actually quite ashamed of myself for once.

...Anyways, if anyone is feeling so bold (or bored?) as to give me advice, I'll listen the best I can. But really, I only want advice if you can back it up. I don't ( Read more... )

mood, depression

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phoenix_kaji July 5 2007, 05:55:12 UTC

Going to bed now, but I'll have to catch you later Mine's kajiphoenix.

You'll hear from me.

ancatsidhe July 5 2007, 05:11:49 UTC

hn... well... you know that we're always ready to listen too, though I think that para-chan and angel would agree with me when I said that, when it comes right down to it, I don't understand this kind of stuff. At all. It simply isn't how I work, and I think we've had that conversation before too. That also means that what I'm going to say now is the obvious to me, and while I don't know that it will help YOU at all, I don't think it's a complete stab in the dark ( ... )

phoenix_kaji July 5 2007, 05:54:05 UTC

Nay, it's fine. I try to have a very rational approach to all this as well. And that's the kind of thing I'm looking for... I think we think a lot alike in that manner... sometimes ( ... )

ancatsidhe July 5 2007, 13:19:43 UTC

*points down* Listen to angel. she knows what she's talking about loads more than I do. I'd say more, but I have to get to work.

keiki_boys July 5 2007, 06:13:54 UTC

I can listen. joey112 on aim.

phoenix_kaji July 5 2007, 18:00:28 UTC

Mine's kajiphoenix. See you around :)

mizunoseiryuu July 5 2007, 06:36:13 UTC

I think what I have to say is the last thing you want to hear. Because you've tried how many different meds in the past four years? How many of those meds were you on for less than a month? Do you know how long it takes for any individual medication to build up in your system and start working? I had to be put on anti-psychotics because of the side-effect of a drug I was taking that meant it WAS working, even though it seemed to be making things worse ( ... )

phoenix_kaji July 5 2007, 16:08:49 UTC

No, actually, it's sort of something I'd thought about before. For most of those years, I had a GP who was basically just throwing random SSRIs at me and saying 'try this'. So I'm sure that there were plenty of those... that, truth knows, might have been helpful ( ... )

mizunoseiryuu July 5 2007, 16:13:39 UTC

I was very sad to hear that the combination you were on didn't work out for you. I know you gave it a long try, and I know that you were given it by a doctor who should know what's what in medication like that. I'll keep my fingers crossed on this new drug. I know that there are a lot of things you CAN'T take with an MAOI, but I also believe that this new doctor will help you find the things that you can and that can help you find (in time) the stability you seek.

phoenix_kaji July 5 2007, 17:19:30 UTC

Yeah I have to watch everything I take now.

At the very least, I know that that combination stabilizes me and allows me to function (albeit at a fairly basic level), and can go back to it if I never find anything else that works. (which is unlikely, I hope...)

Thank you, and I hope listening to my long winded ramble isn't too draining... I'm not thinking fluidly right now, and I think my brain's trying to compensate with wordiness.

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phoenix_kaji July 5 2007, 17:14:30 UTC

Hmm, I hadn't really thought of what I eat... Funny, because when my depression gets bad, my sense of taste and smell changes. I can't taste or smell a lot of things that I'd usually be able to enjoy... (including chow mein!!) I just want sweet stuff. (Makes it kinds hard to make a whole meal out of that, though ( ... )