First day back to real life after vacation. Had a very difficult time waking up today, and not because I didn't want to get back to my routine. It was my dream. I wanted to stay there ( Read more... )

I dreamt about my dad last night. Usually, when I dream about my dad, it's something weighty, whether for good or bad. A few have been violent and unhappy. A few have been spiritually significant. Last night's was just... nice. Happy, even ( Read more... )

More and more, my dream places are of the same theme. I remember, years ago, when I used to dream about buildings with staircases that went on forever or with windows which let in wonderful amounts of light, when I used to find myself in massive marble cities overlooking green waters or when I'd stand at the edge of a broken parking lot staring out ( Read more... )

The earliest portion of last night's dream that I remember is driving after... visiting my brother, I think. I was trying to go home. The roads were both familiar and unfamiliar in that weird dream-like way, parts of recognizable stuff mashed in with bits and pieces of random memories that don't form one whole place that actually exists. Many of ( Read more... )

Been feeling for a while that Dustin and I have been drifting apart... and that any attempt I make to let him know I still adore him makes me come off as needy and selfish and, well, girly*. He's been trying, though, the last week or two. Worry that I'm not holding up my end** despite my desire to keep him in my life ( Read more... )

Dreamt it was Christmas last night and that Justin and I hadn't seen each other in a long time. After making sure everyone else in the house--no idea whose house--was situated, we went back to my room, which seemed like it was actually an enclosed patio once we were there, detached from the house somehow, and just kissed. It felt so good. It felt ( Read more... )

( A Confession... )

It is not a good morning ( Read more... )

I couldn't sleep last night. At all. I'm not sure why. My sleep schedule wasn't any more mucked up than it usually is on any given weekend. Even once dawn came and went, I was still wide awake, tossing and turning, and likely keeping Justin up. It was infuriating ( Read more... )

Also, another thing to add to the list of things I've been missing for way too long now: my dream life.

I've had hints here and there, but... nothing to compare with what it has been in the past. I'm sure it's related.

And Brannen, if you ask me what I'mma do about it today, I'mma make bitchy faces at you. You're right. I know you are. I know.