WHAT THE FUCK AM I DOING???????????JUST ABOUT EVERYTHING

Thats it im becoming a nun. I love too strong, too deep and too much to be doing this...........and i die in mid sentence...like he CAN read my mind....ok so at first i was thinking i am too into this guy and he doesnt seem to be responding back...im high strung because of the whole hack thing...i will have to explain that later...and i was at my ( Read more... )

so i got on the scale today...and ive dropped at least...6lbs in one month....something tells me thats not quite healthy...sigh...i just want to get well...thats all i really want. I hurt so bad from this stupid cough...i just want to be well, to go to work, to go to school (god help me its true) (attempt at a smile) gah....i just want to be

well im sick AGAIN, i feel i dont need to say how much it sucks and how i feel about it. Blast from the past again....gosh...i just dont know how to deal with all this, ok so ya, i think not, i wont go back to him....how could i after everything, is he stupid thinking i would??? geez...thats kinda mean, but we arent even friends, so no, there can ( Read more... )

OH!!!!!!!!! He called me baby again....and sweetheart!!!!!!!!! OMG LMAO I am SUCH a SAP! lol sigh..but i dont care anymore...i am soooooo in la la land and i dont care...i give up careing....(smiles) I surender to being happy and being giddy and being....well im going to let my feelings go as they will (smiles) lol wow, ive had a break through...* ( Read more... )

OK its offical, i am a sap...no not cuz of my romance novels, no not cuz i cry at stupid silly movies that normal people wouldnt cry at, but because a boy hinted at the fact that he wanted to talk to me in the morning...and i got all Awwwwwwwwwwwwwwww on him......sigh (shakeing head....)big dork...well i already knew i was a dork...its just the ( Read more... )

sooooo this habit of staying up late is getting to me...i am officially feeling guilty about my new friend.....lol sigh... new i would do something that would warrant that...lol he has to get up early and ya...im keeping him up so late...i feel bad...OH! just got a web cam today...lol ya...sigh....ooo look a kitty...lol ya ya i know i know, but im ( Read more... )

wow its been a while....well....i still love my job...and things are...emotional, i really have no other way to say it, crying at work, getting upset over the stupidest thing.....im not pregnant, and i have not reason to be so....sensitive, sigh... oh well such is life. I am still talking to one of the three online people....he is the first that i ( Read more... )

wow alot has happened....me getting thrown into a wall.....psyco mexican guy at christmas party...there never is a dull moment for me...oh and i forgot about the being diagnosed with depression...lol sigh...well such is life...maybe when im not so tired and have time i will write about these things...as for now this will serve well enough to remind ( Read more... )

So when I need support its not there....gee....this is my surprised face......sigh...its bull shit, i would do anything for her...if she needed me, what ever she needed i would do it...why the hell for once cant she tell me what i need to hear, why cant she tell me what i want to hear...its not so much that as it is be there for me, her reaction to ( Read more... )