Maybe it was divine providence that made Shunsui look out the window, but when he did, he saw the words on the sidewalk and with a bit of a confused blink and a sad, knowing smile at the same time.
Stepping outside, he looked for Jinx to see if he'd missed her or if she was waiting.
The last few days had left him, quiet and thoughtful. He was expecting they'd need to have a talk, but figured it would be for the best to let Jinx do it at her own speed.
Jinx was there all right. Sitting at the end of the sad face she had drawn, she was making one equally sorrowful. Waiting for him to look out the window (she was going to sit there all night if she had to,) she was left with her own thoughts. Her slender legs were curled up to her chest, arms wrapped around them, and her face was buried in her knees. More people than anticipated seemed to know she was alive, so there was no sense in hiding her pink hair that fell around her knees like a pink mop
( ... )
"Jinx, why dont you come in? There's some beer in the fridge" Was all Shunsui said for now.
There was a pain in his chest he'd been delaying for the last few days, it was catching up with him as he could only ignore the obvious for so long. Standing aside, he gestured through the door for Jinx.
Jinx nodded almost solemnly to his words. "Thanks..." was all she could mutter. After pulling the keys from her motorcycle and shoving them in her pocket, she slowly made her way toward the front door, not making eye contact. The grass along the walk began to whither and die, making her stop and take a deep breath. Her automatic reaction to the terrible luck that followed her was normally "I'll pay for that," but for now she said nothing. The glow of her eyes ceased and she went inside
( ... )
Shunsui sipped his bear and listened carefully, biting his tongue when he needed to. Jinx didn't deserve to be lectured, nor did she deserve Shunsui's ego.
He also had to struggle to follow her as she continued, but he caught the important words.
"I'm sorry I was so condescending, Jinx. I dont have the right to yell at you like I'm your father" He added, shaking his head. He had a pretty good foothold in the wrong too. He had to stop acting like he was right all the time. "But- I'm ready to listen to what you want to talk to me about"
Jinx scoffed, shaking her head, "No one has the right to yell at me like they're my father." She kept herself from adding, I kill them if they do. Thinking upon that for a moment, she took out her switchblade and began to fidget with it. Flipping the blade out, putting it back in, spinning it around in her deft fingertips. And finally she stood, putting the blade away and practicing that calm breathing thing. To be in the same room with him after not seeing him for weeks... after their fight... it was just so strange. She rarely had to deal with something like this. Usually, when the man pissed her off, he died. There were very few exceptions. Sadly enough, this felt borderline
( ... )
Shunsui sighed. He should step up and make things easier for Jinx.
He knew. He really wasn't stupid- he'd seen Jinx and Alba, he'd spoken to Alba online and it didn't take a fool to see her life had changed without Shunsui.
"I think for the time, we needed each other, but since then both our needs have changed. I know you've found someone else.... and I know he understands you more than I could in a hundred years" Shunsui said, trying to choose his words to match what he felt. "I dont want you to feel bad about doing the right thing for yourself- you don't have to worry about me" He said, smiling for her.
It hurt inside, but Shunsui was a large man with a high constitution score. He could suffer the pain for now, because he knew this was for the better end.
When he began to speak, she took her finger out of her mouth and let her eyes drift away from him. He was right in his first sentence, but when he began to say the second, her catlike eyes seemed to grow twice their size and her slit pupils shrank. "Shunsui, I--" she began, then ceased her words to let him continue. And when he told her he did not want her to feel bad about it, she only felt worse. This was Jinx's first actual breakup, after all. And Shunsui was going to be alive to tell the tale.
"....his name's Alba," she finally sighed, crossing her arms over her stomach. "He's my brother." Quickly, she corrected herself, "He's like my brother!" And once more she stumbled over her words. "But not like my brother because he was a telekinetic mute and now he's--" She cut herself off for the better, closed her eyes and collected her words. "I... I think I've always felt this way. I just... I was so stupid with Gin... and then when Gin abandoned me you were the first person who cared about whether I lived or died... and I've never
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"Sometimes, it's hard to tell when people are meant to be your friends and not your lovers, ecspically when you're attracted to them anyway" Shunsui said, putting an arm around her anyway.
God knows he knew about crushing on your best friends.
"I care about you too, Jinx. I think I should have admitted to myself that I really wanted to protect you can care for you rather than be your lover. I'm sorry too, but I hope this doesn't mean we can't still be close. Who else would drink with me? Jushirou falls asleep too quickly" He added, with a little smirk. He wanted her to know he wasnt mad, and that he didnt hate her under any circumstance.
When he put an arm around her, she did not hesitate. That was an invitation. Immediately, she threw her arms around his middle and hugged him tightly, burying her face in the familiar feeling of his chest. She took in his scent and cling to him, afraid that if she let him go, he would leave her entirely. His words to her after that moment were all half muffled as she pressed herself so close to him
( ... )
Shunsui hugged her tight, smoothing down her hair. As long as Jinx was well, that was all Shunsui could ask for. If it took someone else to do that, then he would let that happen, but he wouldn't walk away. He would still be there for her as well.
"Of course, I know Jushirou would say you were always welcome here" Shunsui replied for the other man, but he doubted Ukitake would have said anything different. "I also think he'll understand as well" He nodded with sage wisdom.
"You honestly can't be taking this so well," she told him, sighing, still not letting go of their embrace. "Whenever something good happens for me, something really bad has to happen. It's my curse. And I don't think I've ever been happier so that means someone else has to get it really bad." Sadly enough, that was the truth. It was all probability, something she had a very strong control over. If Jinx wanted to, she could win the lottery. But that also meant that the stock market would have to crash. It was her world and she very accustomed to it.
"Maybe it's the Monacello family," she rationalized. "Alba is a Consigliere for them and our relationship... or maybe it was Soiree's fight... god, whoever took Franky is going to get it..." Finally, she loosened her grip on Shunsui and looked up at him. "So... you're not mad at me?"
Stepping outside, he looked for Jinx to see if he'd missed her or if she was waiting.
The last few days had left him, quiet and thoughtful. He was expecting they'd need to have a talk, but figured it would be for the best to let Jinx do it at her own speed.
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There was a pain in his chest he'd been delaying for the last few days, it was catching up with him as he could only ignore the obvious for so long. Standing aside, he gestured through the door for Jinx.
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He also had to struggle to follow her as she continued, but he caught the important words.
"I'm sorry I was so condescending, Jinx. I dont have the right to yell at you like I'm your father" He added, shaking his head. He had a pretty good foothold in the wrong too. He had to stop acting like he was right all the time. "But- I'm ready to listen to what you want to talk to me about"
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He knew. He really wasn't stupid- he'd seen Jinx and Alba, he'd spoken to Alba online and it didn't take a fool to see her life had changed without Shunsui.
"I think for the time, we needed each other, but since then both our needs have changed. I know you've found someone else.... and I know he understands you more than I could in a hundred years" Shunsui said, trying to choose his words to match what he felt. "I dont want you to feel bad about doing the right thing for yourself- you don't have to worry about me" He said, smiling for her.
It hurt inside, but Shunsui was a large man with a high constitution score. He could suffer the pain for now, because he knew this was for the better end.
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"....his name's Alba," she finally sighed, crossing her arms over her stomach. "He's my brother." Quickly, she corrected herself, "He's like my brother!" And once more she stumbled over her words. "But not like my brother because he was a telekinetic mute and now he's--" She cut herself off for the better, closed her eyes and collected her words. "I... I think I've always felt this way. I just... I was so stupid with Gin... and then when Gin abandoned me you were the first person who cared about whether I lived or died... and I've never ( ... )
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God knows he knew about crushing on your best friends.
"I care about you too, Jinx. I think I should have admitted to myself that I really wanted to protect you can care for you rather than be your lover. I'm sorry too, but I hope this doesn't mean we can't still be close. Who else would drink with me? Jushirou falls asleep too quickly" He added, with a little smirk. He wanted her to know he wasnt mad, and that he didnt hate her under any circumstance.
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"Of course, I know Jushirou would say you were always welcome here" Shunsui replied for the other man, but he doubted Ukitake would have said anything different. "I also think he'll understand as well" He nodded with sage wisdom.
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"Maybe it's the Monacello family," she rationalized. "Alba is a Consigliere for them and our relationship... or maybe it was Soiree's fight... god, whoever took Franky is going to get it..." Finally, she loosened her grip on Shunsui and looked up at him. "So... you're not mad at me?"
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