All the things I meant to say... [closed/in progress]
WHO: Jinx (
badluckykitty ) and Shunsui (
pink_sake )
WHAT: Words need to be had.
WHERE: Jushirou's house.
WHEN: Day 104, mid afternoon. (August 24)
It had only been a few days since then, but the words exchanged between the now broken couple had been gnawing away at Jinx's mind every moment since then. Well, that was not entirely true. There was much more to it then just those words. It was the things left unsaid. Some of the major reasons behind the tension. That night she had spent with Alba... that was a pretty big reason. Of course she had not been faithful to Shunsui while staying with the Meira brothers. She was not expected to be, as long as her heart was still in the same place. But she had many realizations over the past few weeks. Finally, it was going to be vocalized. Jinx felt happy, terrible, and nervously ill all at the same time as she rode her motorcycle to Jushirou's familiar house.
Sitting alone in the Meira bathtub, Jinx had plenty of time to dwell on certain things. One was how she was going to apologize. Write a violin sonata for him? Just walk up to him and kiss him? Would it make things better if she pretended nothing had happened? No... Shunsui needed a truth. He needed a straight answer from her. He deserved to know what had been going on. And in person. The message she tried to leave on his phone had failed miserably, for her tongue was twisted as soon as she heard his voice on the answering message. And now she was going for it all, like ripping off a bandaid or jumping into a cold lake. It was time for the truth. ...but would he be able to handle it?
Not only had she used Shunsui, but she had lied to herself. When Gin left her, she clung to the next man who showed her kindness. That was Shunsui. And immediately, she convinced herself she was in love with him. Without a second thought she told him those words and attached herself to the man. He was her first actual, legitimate relationship and he said he loved her in return. Now as she thought about it, she really did love the man... just in a much different way. Their sexual urges and their feelings for each other had created a complete mess. Now it was time to fix it.
Jinx stopped her motorcycle at the end of the block as not to cause too much of a racket in the neighborhood. She walked it down the street, then leaned it up on the kickstand when she reached the house that held so many memories. There was a scent about it of warmth and good cooking. After taking off her helmet and ruffling her hair, she walked to the front door. It took her quite a while to gather up the courage to almost knock, then pulled back and walked away from the door. This happened three more times, and each she was took much of a coward. And finally, after twenty straight minutes of a battle versus herself, Jinx walked right out in front of the house and got on her knees on the sidewalk. Biting her bottom lip, she pulled the tube of lipstick out of the pocket on her shorts and ran it completely down into the sidewalk to write out in large, pastel purple: I'M SORRY :(
badluckykitty ) and Shunsui (
pink_sake )
WHAT: Words need to be had.
WHERE: Jushirou's house.
WHEN: Day 104, mid afternoon. (August 24)
It had only been a few days since then, but the words exchanged between the now broken couple had been gnawing away at Jinx's mind every moment since then. Well, that was not entirely true. There was much more to it then just those words. It was the things left unsaid. Some of the major reasons behind the tension. That night she had spent with Alba... that was a pretty big reason. Of course she had not been faithful to Shunsui while staying with the Meira brothers. She was not expected to be, as long as her heart was still in the same place. But she had many realizations over the past few weeks. Finally, it was going to be vocalized. Jinx felt happy, terrible, and nervously ill all at the same time as she rode her motorcycle to Jushirou's familiar house.
Sitting alone in the Meira bathtub, Jinx had plenty of time to dwell on certain things. One was how she was going to apologize. Write a violin sonata for him? Just walk up to him and kiss him? Would it make things better if she pretended nothing had happened? No... Shunsui needed a truth. He needed a straight answer from her. He deserved to know what had been going on. And in person. The message she tried to leave on his phone had failed miserably, for her tongue was twisted as soon as she heard his voice on the answering message. And now she was going for it all, like ripping off a bandaid or jumping into a cold lake. It was time for the truth. ...but would he be able to handle it?
Not only had she used Shunsui, but she had lied to herself. When Gin left her, she clung to the next man who showed her kindness. That was Shunsui. And immediately, she convinced herself she was in love with him. Without a second thought she told him those words and attached herself to the man. He was her first actual, legitimate relationship and he said he loved her in return. Now as she thought about it, she really did love the man... just in a much different way. Their sexual urges and their feelings for each other had created a complete mess. Now it was time to fix it.
Jinx stopped her motorcycle at the end of the block as not to cause too much of a racket in the neighborhood. She walked it down the street, then leaned it up on the kickstand when she reached the house that held so many memories. There was a scent about it of warmth and good cooking. After taking off her helmet and ruffling her hair, she walked to the front door. It took her quite a while to gather up the courage to almost knock, then pulled back and walked away from the door. This happened three more times, and each she was took much of a coward. And finally, after twenty straight minutes of a battle versus herself, Jinx walked right out in front of the house and got on her knees on the sidewalk. Biting her bottom lip, she pulled the tube of lipstick out of the pocket on her shorts and ran it completely down into the sidewalk to write out in large, pastel purple: I'M SORRY :(