So my boss finally admitted she's cutting my hours not solely out of some concern for my mental health but also in order to keep me here longer. that's not cool. i was hoping to leave by september, but i no longer think that will happen. not if i adhere to her schedule anyway. though last week was the first she 'enforced' my thirty hour a week ( Read more... )

From June 3rd

in the last seven days i worked 83 hours. that's a lot. i came home crying more than once. overall i did pretty well though. i didn't show too much frustration despite the stress and the annoying-ness of the boys. i had some pretty great moments as well. really connecting with them. i'm gonna take it easy for a couple weeks...

kwast ( Read more... )

what a first day back. lots of stress around the unit tonight. dakota was trying to pick a fight all night, and was fairly successful in escalating chris. in part i think it was because he was bored, that's one of the reasons he frequently cites. i feel responsible for that to a degree, since i'm the one who creates programming for the unit. at the ( Read more... )

i just went to a monthly rape crisis volunteer meeting. i take hotline and medical/legal advocacy shifts for them every month. it's rare to get a call, especially since my work schedule limits me to the midnight to eight am hotline shifts. that's not a bad thing, i take more shifts than most people cause i know no one will call, and i'm glad there ( Read more... )

my mentee (is this a real word? people use it here, but then again a lot fo them don't believe in evolution. the person a mentor advises is their...mentee?)  told me i need to be saved. what the hell does he know about being saved? it was so sad and ironic. and annoying. he's fourteen. he clearly has no concept of what he believes. he has no idea ( Read more... )

phew. work is very strange. i've had days where i seriously fear i was going to get hit. i've had days where i have gotten hit, kicked, smacked, pushed. i'll spend hours trying to calm people down, break up fights, or just get yelled at and degraded for twenty minutes straight.

then i'll have days like today, where relatively little happens and yet ( Read more... )