wants
From June 3rd
in the last seven days i worked 83 hours. that's a lot. i came home crying more than once. overall i did pretty well though. i didn't show too much frustration despite the stress and the annoying-ness of the boys. i had some pretty great moments as well. really connecting with them. i'm gonna take it easy for a couple weeks...
kwast and diane are coming in the weeks to follow. i'm pretty gosh darn excited. i miss having people around. i don't want to do this any longer than i have to. i want someone to come home to. someone to hold me when i'm exhausted and frustrated to the point of tears. i want someone to tell me i'm strong and to drink a mug of coffee with me before i leave for another long day. i want a reason not to work 80 hours in a week. i want a somewhere to be and a someone to meet up with. i want to spend time listening to the thoughts and problems of someone older than 17. i wanna give my support and consideration out of a love that comes from deep within me.
if 'ifs' and 'buts' were candy and nuts...