ratfinks, suicide tanks, and cannibal girls
one of the issues that i was VERY worried about has been resolved. if i had only called community mental health sooner, i wouldn't have spent 2 weeks freaking out about not having med coverage. i feel like an idiot, but it's all good.
i'm going back to
brachypelmic's house on monday to stay with her animals while she's at bonnaroo with
d3p3ch3mod3. i'll be taking ziggy, charlie and
larrypimp with me. it will be nice to have some (more) time away. after i started settling into a routine down there last week, it was so good for me. not having internet or cable tv = me seeing more sunshine and reading more books. i'm going to take pen and paper down there too, and see if anything spills out of my brain.
i'm going to see dawn on friday. it's been a couple weeks since i've seen her, and it'll be a couple weeks more after that until i see her again. i repeat the mantra in my head, "i am not dependent on my therapist, i am not dependent on my therapist..." do i believe myself? yes, to a certain extent. i'll be okay, i know. the part that bothers me most is that having a break like this causes some issues to have to be started in on all over again... out of sight, out of mind, you know? also i feel that she's one of the few people who understands me and can read me when i'm bullshitting and saying everything's okay. and it's nice to be around someone who knows, intuitively, that i usually need far more than i will ever ask for.
emc
May, 2007
Little Cities
Kalamazoo, MI
i'm going back to
brachypelmic's house on monday to stay with her animals while she's at bonnaroo with
d3p3ch3mod3. i'll be taking ziggy, charlie and
larrypimp with me. it will be nice to have some (more) time away. after i started settling into a routine down there last week, it was so good for me. not having internet or cable tv = me seeing more sunshine and reading more books. i'm going to take pen and paper down there too, and see if anything spills out of my brain.
i'm going to see dawn on friday. it's been a couple weeks since i've seen her, and it'll be a couple weeks more after that until i see her again. i repeat the mantra in my head, "i am not dependent on my therapist, i am not dependent on my therapist..." do i believe myself? yes, to a certain extent. i'll be okay, i know. the part that bothers me most is that having a break like this causes some issues to have to be started in on all over again... out of sight, out of mind, you know? also i feel that she's one of the few people who understands me and can read me when i'm bullshitting and saying everything's okay. and it's nice to be around someone who knows, intuitively, that i usually need far more than i will ever ask for.
emc
May, 2007
Little Cities
Kalamazoo, MI