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hello.
i have so much bullshit going on right now. i'm trying to keep my head above water. my brain has responded by pushing ALL of it away, for pretty much 23 hours each day. and for that 1 hr that i'm actually thinking seriously about it, i am unable to think about more than 1 problem at a time. literally unable. i'm grateful for my head for making that small effort at self-preservation. it helps. everything is just too huge.
i'm reading a really overwhelming book that's sort of keeping me up on the edge too. but it's something i need to read, for myself, because i need to have things IN my fucking life instead of pushing them away all the time until they build up and i explode with no apparent cause.
emc
May, 2007
Back Alley Art
Kalamazoo, MI
i have so much bullshit going on right now. i'm trying to keep my head above water. my brain has responded by pushing ALL of it away, for pretty much 23 hours each day. and for that 1 hr that i'm actually thinking seriously about it, i am unable to think about more than 1 problem at a time. literally unable. i'm grateful for my head for making that small effort at self-preservation. it helps. everything is just too huge.
i'm reading a really overwhelming book that's sort of keeping me up on the edge too. but it's something i need to read, for myself, because i need to have things IN my fucking life instead of pushing them away all the time until they build up and i explode with no apparent cause.
emc
May, 2007
Back Alley Art
Kalamazoo, MI