Hiding in the corner, looking scared
reddragdiva is probably not up to being my date for Vagabonds (dratted cold), but I still want to go anyway. Who's going? Will you be able to handle hanging out with me a bit? I... get really nervous there, and feeling nervous makes me feel like I am not worth hanging out with, so I want to sort it out a little bit before I go. *I really don't want to drink my nerves away, I always get really p*ssed when I do that.*
I have no small talk. I can do fake small talk about fictional things, but not real things. I have rather too much big talk. When asked 'how are you' shall I answer 'fine*, how are you,' or 'really nervous and insecure, how are you?'
Doings today:
GP appointment, shortly followed by
Very short six-monthly appointment with psychiatrist
Lunch chez moi
Work, meeting in W'stow to do shopping (shopping is part of work)
Performing queer Shakespeare workshop in town (if I have any spoons left)
Eat at Vita Organics maybe
Walk home (practically the only exercise I'll get today, yikes)
Flopflopflop
*True if it means F*cked up, Insecure, Nervous and Emotional
I have no small talk. I can do fake small talk about fictional things, but not real things. I have rather too much big talk. When asked 'how are you' shall I answer 'fine*, how are you,' or 'really nervous and insecure, how are you?'
Doings today:
GP appointment, shortly followed by
Very short six-monthly appointment with psychiatrist
Lunch chez moi
Work, meeting in W'stow to do shopping (shopping is part of work)
Performing queer Shakespeare workshop in town (if I have any spoons left)
Eat at Vita Organics maybe
Walk home (practically the only exercise I'll get today, yikes)
Flopflopflop
*True if it means F*cked up, Insecure, Nervous and Emotional