Once again I am here...
So I have been having these dreams about one of my female friends from high school. I first thought they were sex dreams because we where both naked and we both where doing some very sexual things to each other. At least the beginning of my dream I remember. I also have been waking up very violently and so I think the dream turns really bad later on I just can’t seem to remember the really bad part of the dream. The thing that bothers me the most is that I am still so attracted to this woman even though she is gone has a kid or two and is with a guy, I just can’t stop thinking about her.
So I am about the writ my security licence, and then I will be working for the Securiguard Company. Not bad I guess it was time enough for me to get a real job and stop acting like a child. They are making me jump though a bunch of hoops but that is ok I am all good with it but it will be nice to actually have a job with a licence for once in my life.
The last thing is that my parents are in town and do not get me wrong I like them being here but as bad of a looser as I am they being here makes me feel like a failure. Every time they buy me more stuff and trust me I am stocked up for a year worth of food now. I just hate that I am not breaking even; I want to make money so I can pay back people instead of being in the hole all the time. I am just glad they are here I just hate that my life is not turned around. All my friends and best friends have careers and I am still struggling for a crappy job it is just very disheartening.
So I am about the writ my security licence, and then I will be working for the Securiguard Company. Not bad I guess it was time enough for me to get a real job and stop acting like a child. They are making me jump though a bunch of hoops but that is ok I am all good with it but it will be nice to actually have a job with a licence for once in my life.
The last thing is that my parents are in town and do not get me wrong I like them being here but as bad of a looser as I am they being here makes me feel like a failure. Every time they buy me more stuff and trust me I am stocked up for a year worth of food now. I just hate that I am not breaking even; I want to make money so I can pay back people instead of being in the hole all the time. I am just glad they are here I just hate that my life is not turned around. All my friends and best friends have careers and I am still struggling for a crappy job it is just very disheartening.