i am now on myspace..

myspace.com/nkb1

my name is bluest star.

I just realized that the weirdos who work at starbucks sustain their 'HEY THERE!!!! HOW ARE YOU??! I LOOOOOOVE WORKING HERE SOOOoOOOooo MUCH" crap, with 20 shots of espresso and snorting coke on their breaks.

Look at the octopus woman skeleton.

I've actually lost my mind. I've actually lost my mind. I've actually lost my mind.

I leave for ohio today. i'm only gonna go back to fl in december which sucks.

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What does it feel to be old? I mean really old. Like on your death bed old. I started thinking about how youth is viewed. How do I view people that are younger than me. I told my brother today that I'm glad I never committed suicide. I started thinking about the richness I have discovered and all the people I have met over the years. I told him ( Read more... )

I just realized I can't live without music. If I didn't have music I would be so miserable. I can't really explain how it makes me feel. I had a sudden moment of fear, if I went deaf I really don't know what I'd do. I guess I'd have the music of my memories but that's not good enough. I'd cry every day for the purity of heard sound. But really ( Read more... )

Mom and I were looking at the Quran today. She was trying to teach me Arabic again. I think I'm ready to learn about Islam. I think it is time now. She was talking about her life and what religion meant to her growing up. She explained how she was in fear rather than admiration. I began thinking about codes and deciphering. It is interesting how ( Read more... )

It's weird how some people just know you. They know you better than people who have known you your whole life. It's weird how they just have some secret key, that unlocks so many areas of your mind. It's such a weird sensation to be the key to someone elses life. It's alot of infomation, alot of trust. I guess there are people that can care for you ( Read more... )