Today is the day I re read the last post, and realized it was silly.  It was what it was.  It wasn't silly at the time.  It was how I felt.  But now I am in a much better place in my life.  I am in love, and I am beginning to understand what being successful really means.  Not just with a job, or just with a relationship, or just with school, or ( Read more... )

I'm having a really rough semester.  So much has changed, so much needs to change.  so much has changed without me knowing it.  I havent posted on here in forever, but I don't think anyone really reads this anymore, so I came to a common place where I can just vent.  I dont know whats going on today.  I'm having a really sad day.  The holidays are ( Read more... )

I can't believe it's been 6 years.  I still remember where I was the day it all happened.  I remember when I was little mom parents always told me about how they remembered where they were the day JFK, or MLK was shot...I didn;t understand how that felt.  I couldnt imagine such strong emotions lasting with you through all of those many years, but ( Read more... )

I"m going to be in MP tomorrow for a meeting at CMU, pray to go I don't run in to any assholes.  I get to see Nicole.  yaya, and rachel and erin, and maybe michelle :)  I'm excited.  I love my life.  I say that every time I write in here, but it's true.  Chicago was so so so much fun.  Vacationing with Trish is so much fun, when I graduate from PA ( Read more... )

The perfect end to a fabulous summer :)

Tomorrow I'm going to GR to visit GVSU AND most importantly Rachel!!  We've been planning this for so long, and it's finally here....It's crazy how far ahead you have to plan your life as you get older....Wednesday I am going to Chicago...Finally going to see Lindsey, and I couldnt go on vacation these days ( Read more... )

I've had the MOST amazing week :)  SOo good to myself :)  FIrst, I got a 98 on my final lab exam and an 84 on my final written exam...so yay for that :)  Then thursday after working for a bit, I drove up to Interlochen!!  I finally took that scenic drive that I so desperately needed....SO I camped for the night at the State park, which was f-ing ( Read more... )

Lately I feel SO scatterbrained.  I can't concentrate, I can't think straight, I'm SO uptight, and getting annoyed so easily.  It's completely frustrating.  I just took an exam and feel like I completely bombed it.  I knew the answers.  I just couldnt get my brain to think of the answers.  I hate it.  God I'm having a pitty party, and I usually don ( Read more... )

Today I had a thought...one I thought I would never have in my entire life....but I did.  There are some things in my past that, if given the chance to re-do...I completely would.  It's sad really, because I thought I would never have regrets....and I have always tried to think positively, that life happens the way it's supossed to, and that all of ( Read more... )

For the first time, I felt really out of place...not so much because I felt I wasn't wanted, or that I shouldn't have been there...but more becuase I felt like I really just didn't have a place.  This past weekend my family went to the UP/Mackinac island for our usual family vacation.  It's been a while since I have actually gone on one of these ( Read more... )

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