there is something i want to learn. i want to learn it bad enough that i'm willing to jump through a few hurdles to get there. but a thought occurs to me. why do i want this so bad. Granted when i was a freshman in college and first learned about this i wanted to learn it but was told that is for more advanced fighters. so i learned the basics ( Read more... )

so here i am again with plenty of things on my mind that i just need to get out. i picked this journal for this because i feel i can be more open and while i like it when my friends comment sadly i know only one friend, ok two at most will be able to read it here. ok that probably didn't make sense. not many people read my thoughts anyway. sigh ok ( Read more... )

i'm applying for an apartment of my own. wow. this makes me nervous because i would really like it. right now a lot of things are up in the air for me right now. i've applied at many different places for a second job. i'm getting ready to apply for graduate school. nothing is set in stone. i don't really like being in this kind of limbo ( Read more... )

i was at gaming night last night and this is where this started. all people wanted to do is complain. that is not completely fair. it was mainly one person who is always complaining about something. everything was getting complained about. now granted my math skills suck and though it was explained to me it takes a while for me to grasp certain ( Read more... )

So a lot of ideas have been thrown around lately. Mostly through conversations with my friends. I've been worried about my student loans which soon will become due for me to start repayment on. Some of my friends are sure that i can get a deferment so i won't have to worry about them while i'm so broke but others have a different idea ( Read more... )

In the book "The Truth about Forever" the phrase this is my forever is used a couple of times. I like this phrase. My life is my forever and this book makes one think about how if this is my forever how to i want to spend it ( Read more... )

Well it is offical Zack has quit my bowling team. we only have like seven more weeks of it. What started this it was probably my reaction to his blog on myspace about how he couldn't trust anyone not even me and how i didn't get him what he wanted for christmas so i'm not trustworthy. This really hurt and needless to say killed my post fight high. ( Read more... )

I have attempted to teach myself a new trick. Sewing. why one might ask. because it seems to be the best way to get a rapier jacket and more garb. The problem. I don't know how to use a sewing machine and really haven't done anything but light patch work before. But i didn't let that stop me.... I really like the rapier jacket one of my friends has ( Read more... )

It makes me kinda sad to read on things like facebook that some of my friends are not feeling well. Tonight is a night that most people get to hang out with friends and just be happy and celebrate. People should be immune from sickness on holidays like this ( Read more... )

One of the greatest things in my opinion at least is back massages. I have Scoliosis and my spine is curved a forth of an in inward. i have friends with simular problems which causes them pain. i don't know if that is one reason my back often hurts after physical activity or whether my muscles just don't like my activities. I've been packing and ( Read more... )