things on my mind
so here i am again with plenty of things on my mind that i just need to get out. i picked this journal for this because i feel i can be more open and while i like it when my friends comment sadly i know only one friend, ok two at most will be able to read it here. ok that probably didn't make sense. not many people read my thoughts anyway. sigh ok moving on.
so at work today i was told that starting on July 1st i am being transferred to another store because the owner of the wendy's i work at is closing us down. why. because that is the day the university decreed we would no longer be able to accept student cards as a form of payment. so now i'm probably looking at less hours in a store i'm not familar with. sigh. dang it.
i'm not making much progress in rapier right now either. the more i try to practice and apply what i've been told...the worse i'm getting. sigh. i should have known this would happen eventually. it happened when i was bowling. even a member of my group told me i'll get worse before i get better. i'm just afraid my group will give up on me if i don't get better...or that they will think i'm not trying my hardest or being serious about it. i know i'm probably over reacting but dang it. sigh.
my crush isn't getting any better either. sigh. crushes are so cruel. all i want is to be closer to him but i don't know how. i'm postive he doesn't like me in the way i like him but my heart doesn't care. i wish i could be his....sigh...dang it. some of my friends have said that i should try but i don't know how.
i shouldn't be blogging while i'm tired so i'm signing off now.
so at work today i was told that starting on July 1st i am being transferred to another store because the owner of the wendy's i work at is closing us down. why. because that is the day the university decreed we would no longer be able to accept student cards as a form of payment. so now i'm probably looking at less hours in a store i'm not familar with. sigh. dang it.
i'm not making much progress in rapier right now either. the more i try to practice and apply what i've been told...the worse i'm getting. sigh. i should have known this would happen eventually. it happened when i was bowling. even a member of my group told me i'll get worse before i get better. i'm just afraid my group will give up on me if i don't get better...or that they will think i'm not trying my hardest or being serious about it. i know i'm probably over reacting but dang it. sigh.
my crush isn't getting any better either. sigh. crushes are so cruel. all i want is to be closer to him but i don't know how. i'm postive he doesn't like me in the way i like him but my heart doesn't care. i wish i could be his....sigh...dang it. some of my friends have said that i should try but i don't know how.
i shouldn't be blogging while i'm tired so i'm signing off now.