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there is something i want to learn. i want to learn it bad enough that i'm willing to jump through a few hurdles to get there. but a thought occurs to me. why do i want this so bad. Granted when i was a freshman in college and first learned about this i wanted to learn it but was told that is for more advanced fighters. so i learned the basics until they wouldn't teach me anymore. when i returned my senior year of college i know the teacher but he didn't think i should learn it. i didn't want to make him mad so i dropped the issue...for now.
this leads me to the question of do i want to learn this so badly now because it was my orignial goal when i started as a freshman or if it is because i want to prove to someone that i can learn and be good at it. sigh. it is probably a bit of both. i guess i just don't like the implication that i'm not strong even or good enough to learn something.
i've always subscribed to the belief that anyone can learn anything. you just need to find someone or someway to learn it in a way you can understand.
when i was in high school my swim coach gave up on teaching me how to flip turn under water. my friend who was also on the team decided to take matters into his own hands. he grabbed me and after advising that i hold my breath picked me up and forced my body to flip. he did this repeatedly until my body had learned the muscle memory to do it without being forced. my coach was never so surprized as when she found out i could flip turn.
of course this could just me being narasstic. and thinking too much again. it just helps to get my thouhts out sometimes even if i am self centered sometimes.
this leads me to the question of do i want to learn this so badly now because it was my orignial goal when i started as a freshman or if it is because i want to prove to someone that i can learn and be good at it. sigh. it is probably a bit of both. i guess i just don't like the implication that i'm not strong even or good enough to learn something.
i've always subscribed to the belief that anyone can learn anything. you just need to find someone or someway to learn it in a way you can understand.
when i was in high school my swim coach gave up on teaching me how to flip turn under water. my friend who was also on the team decided to take matters into his own hands. he grabbed me and after advising that i hold my breath picked me up and forced my body to flip. he did this repeatedly until my body had learned the muscle memory to do it without being forced. my coach was never so surprized as when she found out i could flip turn.
of course this could just me being narasstic. and thinking too much again. it just helps to get my thouhts out sometimes even if i am self centered sometimes.