we had plans far away, but i think i am happier with the final decision.  it would have been a nice trip, you certainly know me, i can not deny.  the truth of the matter is that i dont like celebrating these things, and im certain i would have just as good a time in a familiar place wrapped in the warmth of each other ( Read more... )

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"I'm a poet without words. Behind every petal, my secrets are buried. Through each vein, I've bound what it is to breathe. For the frailty of words has become my burden and the beginning lines of your smile. Happy Birthday and Merry Christmas"

even when our worlds are falling apart on opposite ends we somehow find comfort and safety in each others arms. It feels like I can get through anything. I feel like everything will work out as long as I know that you're out there thinking of me ( Read more... )

dont fuck things up while you're ahead. maybe i should step back a little, especially with the holidays approaching, im curious to see your reaction.

fuck, i just keep shaking, what the hell am i doing.

i feel so tired all the time lately. when i get home from work i just want to fall asleep as soon as a lay on the couch. i feel like there are so many things i need to do, yet i keep receeding into nothingness. my minds has been so lost. i need to finish my application for csu. i need to change my car loan payments. i need to finish my ( Read more... )

i got the cable back on.. yay... was only $260. im supposed to drive to texas next month, but i dont know how i will afford it. im already a month behind on all of my bills. awesome. awesome. awesome ( Read more... )

i just realized i made an entry last night, i dont even remember writing it. wtf

you're one of the only people who has tested my being in such a way. the words you form in my ears fill me with so much bliss that everything around me falls away. im so impressed.. im so impressed by you. quit underestimating yourself. i think you are naive to your own genius ( Read more... )