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I cut.

But hey! at least I didn't drink.
Ya trade one habit for another. 

Why oh why do I have the shittiest of coping skills?
First cutting. And now I can feel myself slowly edging towards an inclination to getting shwasted.
Whenever I'm upset or pissed it's the first thing I think about. How do I get my hands on some alcohol. Can't wait.

That can't be good.

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 I'm so close to the top I can taste it.
Taste it so vivid it almost makes me wanna vomit.
But it's like one step forward, two steps back. 
I want it; take it. Do it! Get it!

-sigh-

 Why don't you ever write me love letters?
Or is the only feeling that's capable of invoking thought from you hate? -
Why don't you ever write me hate letters?
Or are the feelings you have for me just superficial? -

Any emotion would be a coveted one if it were from you to me.
Why not leave me anything? A note for me to know that you know that this is ( Read more... )

I signed with Wilhelmina-Evolution.
My extremely seemingly out of reach goal when I first started this only ONLY a year and a half ago; is upon me.
I am so proud of myself.
I love what I do SO much, but at the same time I absolutely abhor it.
This industry can be so fake and aggravating.
I hate "fake it until you make it" type attitudes and people.
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I want to forget it all.