It's been two months to the day since my grandfather died. It feels like a year, but it also feels like it was only yesterday, and that it's all just a terrible dream and that I'll wake up soon. Catch-22, my friends, Catch-22. I think about him everyday. I really, really miss him. If this constitutes life after Mr. Bennet has passed on and left ( Read more... )

I feel very tired. This is probably because I slept three hours last night. But more on that later ( Read more... )

Tonight was the wake for my young friend Ruben. He was only 19 years old and he died last week in a really bad car crash. I grew up with and was once best friends with his older brother. It's so hard to believe that such a sweet young man with his whole life ahead of him is gone. My whole family has just been feeling so horrible for the Oliveiras. ( Read more... )

They played that song at my grandpa's funeral today. It nearly killed me. I am not kidding.

It was a beautiful service. As much as I hate that particular funeral home, I have to say that they made the poor man look very handsome. He also had his best suit, and he looked more like a still distinguished Clint Eastwood than ever. My aunt Lucy did the ( Read more... )

The last ten days have been an exercise in suffering and folly. Tomorrow the doctors plan to begin unplugging my grandfather. He has made very, very small improvements, but these are not significant enough to support life, in my opinion. He can't stay as he is, and the doctors said that they either need to trach him, or let him go. Honestly, I ( Read more... )

That is something that Clint Eastwood said. It's also something my grandpa loved. I even called him Clint Eastwood, which he got a kick out of.  And it's what I called him when I went to say goodbye to him today ( Read more... )

Well, I'm pretty much out of hope. My grandfather's condition has not changed. He's just...the same as he was yesterday. The doctors wanted to move him to Boston, but he would have died in transit. So, they are going to try one more treatment. If it doesn't work, then this is it. He won't make it. We'll know whether or not it works in the next 24 ( Read more... )