I am seeing a Psychiatrist two weeks from today. The mental health nurse who met with Dave and I today felt beyond a reason of a doubt that I need to be treated as soon as possible for an anxiety disorder and quite possible a mood disorder. She feels that all the repeated trauma of the past 3 years, along with the complete life change that came ( Read more... )

I am so sad...Jaspurr is gone and it's our fault.
We made the very hard to come to decision to have him put down tonight and it's eating me alive.
He had another (4th) Urinary blockage/crystals, that keep's coming back no matter what we try..He has been on special food for years and we have spent literally over a thousand dollars on him in the past ( Read more... )

Stupid Anxiety ( Read more... )

Went to see Dave tonight, he is doing well, in alot of pain from the drainage sack in his hip and pretty sleepy from the medication. He was concerned about some feeling loss in the finger they operated on, but they said it could be related to swelling, they will have a look tommorow. I am hopeful they will let him come home with me tommorow. I will ( Read more... )

WOW Mood ( Read more... )

God! Were to begin. Ok I will begin with the good ( Read more... )

At my mom's for a bit, she is 3 hours and 1 province over from home. Dave and I drove here today as I wanted to keep busy this comming week while he is working extra long shifts. So the plan was he would go back to Halifax tommorow and I will stay for a week. Easy enough. Not so much, I did not want to leave my home, not for a whole week, its where ( Read more... )

This social phobia, this paranoia of going out in public in case I run into someone who see's me all non-pregnant now and asks me about Evan..its just been reinforced ( Read more... )