I decided to live and let go of fears. First thing I confronted was fear of speaking. Of course my job helped A LOT because it shoved reality in my face and it's either you grab it by the balls and go on or stay behind and lose. I succeeded and felt alright about the way I speak for the first time in my life ( Read more... )

I've lost interest in Paul Countryboy. I am easily bored.

Wish I could avoid birthday posts, but there's a tag and I've been posting every 2nd of October since 2004, so it seems they're mandatory.

Merry birthday to me.

( I'll post a pic of my cat. She's prettier than me anyway. )

Being bipolar at work.

Monday, July 13th - 12:02

Can't work. Unable to ( Read more... )

I basically have no hopes for 2009.

I don't hope to find work. I want to find work.
I don't hope to lose weight. I want to lose weight.
I don't hope for a better life. I want a better life ( Read more... )

I think my flist needs some cutting. Certain journals are plain dead and some others - well I just don't care about them (and the people writing) that much anymore.
This is not the usual and stupid "comment-if-you-want-to-stay" post. I already know who to cut and I don't care if you want to stay. Honestly.

Off to watch Itoshi kimi e. Felt like ( Read more... )

Working out and crazy diet seem to be working. Three kgs lost. But I can do better ( Read more... )

I'm such a fool. I sit around and keep on staring at the cellphone display, hoping for him to text me or something. Then I go and take a look at one of his friends' blogs and SURPRISE.

"Hi love.
I'm going to work but I'm sleepy!
I think about you every second.
Je t'aime."

Asshole. Yeah, I'm an asshole.

Now I don't know if I should: a)tell him ( Read more... )

I don't want to think about it anymore. I'll just do whatever I'm supposed to do and earn money and travel a lot (when possible) and hope in a better future (like when I'll be 35-40 or something). I want to find a nice husband and have a child or two. This morning I went to church with my family and sitting in front of us there was a cute little ( Read more... )

Yeah, I'm a busy bitch.

I haven't found a minute to write something on here for more than a week. You're probably asking, what's up with that? What have you been doing? Well the fact is... God I should make a friends only post about this. Because it's quite a secret.

I could also get my entire journal friends only. Why not?

We'll see.

( Something funny I got around )

Yesterday I pre-ordered Tour05 It Withers and Withers (Limited Edition)I just can't wait until May ( Read more... )